CANDICE.

2011-05-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

Before A levels, all i wanted was a place in university. Any university is fine for me, tho secretly i was aiming for NTU biz. So results came, then I realised i missed the 10th percentile for 2010 by a bit. But i thought that bit was rather significant. So yeah, changed my target to SMU's biz because its grade profile was loewr hence easier to get in. Months after A levels, we finally received our application outcomes/offers. The first one I got was NTU biz. Damnnnnn i was so happy! Okay, slightly bitter because they rejected my first choice of accountancy. You may ask, why did i even put accountancy in the first place? Two reasons. My parents and I felt that it was a more professional degree hence a safer one compared to general biz. Second, I thought it sounded more cool, like atas. Dont roll your eyes at me tsk. But I was still estatic upon receiving the offer of biz from NTU. As days passed, friends around me started to receive their offers. And most of them were applying for Science courses except Wanyi. And yup they all got their sci/pharmacy places in NUS while Wanyi got her NUS biz. hm. okay. I was feeling a little dejected. NUS offered me science, my third choice. Was a teeny weeny bit happy that I got the offer, but then science wasnt what I wanted. I have never considered doing science in uni before. So for two days after i received the NUS offer, I kept thinking if i should just do science instead. Reason? I really wanted to get into that 'branded' school. I mean, Its aes, then cj. I've never like proved to myself that althought im a rather stupid slow person, with hardwork i CAN do as well. I wanted to feel proud of my academic achievements. I wanted recognition. But one major reason was me being afraid of, being forgotten. All my closest friends are going to the same school. Can you imagine? Lunch together, school events together etc. Its like cj all over again. yes, everybody will have their own friends alr but at least its way easier for them to meet up right? Sigh, I dont want it to be another aes where after school I drifted away like crazy. I pray that my friends dont forget me when they're all happy in NUS, that they still have sibei in NTU... Dad asked me to appeal. He said no harm trying. Oh well, yeah im gonna try appealing, tho keeping my hopes really low to cushion my disappointment heh. But i know, my parents are already freaking happy with NTU biz. So just when I was definitely going for Biz, SMU's accountancy offer came. Im like, okay what the shit how now. It took me only 1.5 days to figure out that, nope im not going to SMU. I may say its far and all (It really is compared to NTU,NUS), but the major reason is the impression of the school thats formed in my head. Call me shallow and all la, I think Im really shallow as well. I hope i can stop having such illogical thinking asap.

So okay, 99% NTU biz now :) unless my 1% appeal is successful hahaha.

YAY JUST GOT OUR PAY!! wheee tho its damn little this month sigh. But fret not! because may is the OT chiong sai month so may's pay is gonna be damn huge babeh!! :D

AND DOUBLE YAY ITS WEDNESDAY TODAY I.E FREDY DAY HEHE. cant wait for class later!! lady gaga's 'Judas' oooooooo ^^ nola. idk the song hahahahaha

2011-05-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

I am very upset today at work. Or rather, now, because im still in the office. Sigh. Today I witnessed how lazy some colleagues can be. They are really lazy to the point I think they are taking advangtage of me. When I was under HP, MeiChen would appreciate my work. I dont know how to describe this. But perhaps its the way she assigns work and the way she communicates with me that makes me feel obliged and at the same time willingly want to help her. Whereas for Shell the new engagement that i've been assigned to, has been pretty upsetting to me. Im fine with the heavy workload as compared to HP. But I feel sad and sometimes pissed whenever im assigned work that the seniors can do themselves. Things like printing of organisers and commencement dates and all that, HP wouldnt ask me to print all. I always thought, whoever's drafting the returns should just print themselves before they start drafting. It makes MY life easier and honestly it wouldnt cause them MUCH hassle. I know i'm only a temporary staff and that im supposed to do work for the seniors but hey if you want me to churn the returns for you asap then why are you assigning me so many administrative work which you can do yourself..? sigh. okay so I kinda got used to the part where i have to be a saigang warrior and print every single damned thing for them before they can conveniently start churning their returns. Then today, I really raged inside. Another senior told me to reprint the organisers that i've printed for her last week. Reason? she didnt like the format as she found it difficult to read. HONESTLY the difference between HER prefered format and the one i printed out are the same except hers would be more summarised, hence making it easier to read. but wtheck. The difference in my honest opinion is too minor and anal. sigh. But what to do? Im here for her to exploit. okay, i cant say anything. And another senior wanted me to print single side. I thought it was really a waste of paper to not print double side because we honestly do not need the blank page. She probably found it easier to read as well if it was single-sided. Sigh why my seniors like that :( but again, BO BIAN. just gotta suck it up. I'll just pray that these 2 months left would pass asap so i can return to school, where it isnt as 'cruel' and 'cold' as society :(

And i apologise for my tweet rage just now. Really degrading -.-

2011-04-06T22:21:00.000-07:00

yozzzzz wassupzzz.

Just had lunch! yummy yummy ba chor mee! :D Wanted to get subway cookies but the queue was too long sigh. oh and there's something I MUST comment on. WIFI WAS SO GOOD YESTERDAY AND TODAY! i am so happy. really. like super. because on days that wifi suxx, i can like stone for the entire morning till after lunch. yup so today is really productive me like! :D Im getting better at drafting form B1s. The more i do, the lesser mistakes i make. and today, I got a 10/10 letter! hahaha okay i rated myself lolol. But its cus my letter didnt need any amendments! hehehe sho happy siol~

I really wanna blog about something. But im working everyday and there's nothing much to talk about besides work and weekends. And im not the kind of bloggers who blog about issues and stuff. I only blog about my affairs lolol. Like whatever i did and stuff so i wont forget and i can read back next time :)

BUT ITS SO BORING I CANNOT TANK AT TIMES.

sigh. let me go think of something i can blog about. I have the urge to do a reallyyyyyyyy long post.

2011-04-03T17:59:00.000-07:00

okay got like major urge to blog right now. heh since my manager is not in the office yet... might as well.

2 April 2011, Saturday.
We FINALLY went to shop at The Editor's market at cine. We being Jan, June, Ori hehe. Oh Juliana joined us too! We spent quite a bit and our total bill was 575 muahahahaha. but we were all DAMN HAPPY with our buys yknow! :D so cheap because we bought in bulk! :D There was nobody in the store when we were there (because we ganchiong spiders were there early haha) AND there was no limitations to how many apparels we could try at one time so we practically raped the store. I got a total of like 6 pieces of clothings, 2 pairs of heels and a bag! 9 items for 150 haha sheez damn cheap! really! Guys can never buy 9 items for 150 please. So after spending like 3 hours in the store, June mal left, ori juliana too, while jan and i headed to KFC for some snackerzzz. Then it was to Novena to collect our race pack where we met our colleagues as well. Didnt stay for dinner and trained home. Sheez the journey was DAMN long.
Went to bpp to alter my dress after lepaking a while at home. 922 is really convenient! So anyway i kinda lepaked my evening all the way until like 10pm when Huilak came to pick me up. hahaha some retard. He was screaming out of the car -.- Anyway nice guy la come my place to pick me up. Thanks thanks. Then we drove down to tiong bahru to pick Kiat Hwee and Karissa. Holiday Inn to get drinks, then phuture! :D Sheez it was damn fun! Got a little too dizzy at one moment and i didnt realise i stepped on alot of people's feet until they told me hahahaha oops. Songs were pretty nice that night! but Phuture was seriously too squeezy. Zouk felt better. but more old people hahaha. So yeah, It was damn fun la basically. Hl's friends were decent also so it was nice to dance together everybody! Left at like 4 plus and we headed to Clarke Quay's Macs for breakfast. Lepaked awhile then home sweet home. Thanks for the ride back too hahaha. Chionged to the toilet to shower and was behaving quite like a ninja to avoid the notice of my grandma cus i will die if she knows i was home at only 7 :/

Slept till three before gg for dance. Home for dinner and yup that pretty much sums up my weekend last week. CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT WEEKEND NOW HAHA WTHECK. Its monday today btw. 5 more days. GO CANDICEEE!

2011-03-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

Took leave today to do up my Uni Applications, like finally. I spent like 3 hours on all three schools. Really hope to get into NTU/NUS. Anyway i've got lots of stuff to do today. Uni apps one, alter my pants two, finish theory hw three, and lastly tuition with lindsay four. Feels good to be at home without having to go to work. But yeah, that also means no monehhh. Sigh my first pay is depleting at breakneck speed LOLZ. but what to do? its the first pay what. Gotta spend it somehow. hahahaha.

Hokay better go off now!

2011-03-20T04:27:00.000-07:00

19 March 2011.

Work was pretty slack. I did mostly finalisation of the B1 tax package. Bloody wifi was so cocked up i spent like the entire time after lunch JUST to print out the documents -.- mega low productivity manxz. Headed for dinner at Botak Jones with June after work. Yummm it was my first time there and hey i liked their food alot! esp that cheesy mesh potato thingy haha. Its slightly more expensive than Astons but yeah equally yummy :) Went to cine to pandora box and got myself a dress and a cardigan! hehehe so happy :D Then it was dance at Danzpeople till 11 plus gg 12 -.- I missed the last bus home and yeah train too. Thank god my parents came to pick me up or i will have to spent a bomb on cab. Chionged to the toilet to shower the moment i reached home and yeah, crashed immediately as well without drying my hair. I was DEAD tired. It was two am by then.

20 March 2011
Woke up at 730am and met June at BPP interchange at 8.15am. WAS SO TIRED :< but was also very excited because we were going to watch DISNEY ON ICE WHEEEEEEEE :DDD So we bought breakfast from long john then 700-ed to Dhoby Ghaut before taking the circle line to Stadium Station. We devoured our turkey bacon and cheese breakfast before entering the Indoor Stadium. THE SHOW WAS SO MAGICAL!! I was totally drawn into the 'The little mermaid' and 'Tinkerbell' show. Prince Eric was SO HANDSOME YKNOW!! Terence from tinkerbell was pretty cool too hehe. ALL the skaters were damnnnn good! salute man! They really can skate and do those stunts so elegantly and it looks so effortlessly. (Y) It was really an eye-opener. I am so glad we went to watch it in the end :D After that we met up with Wanyi at Toapayoh, got Amanda's cake and left for Serene Center. Wanted to have lunch at some La Petite place but it wasnt opened yet. So we went to Mad Jacks instead. I HAD SOME GRILLED FISH AND YUMMMM IT WAS DEEEEELICIOUS! HEHEHE love the fish!! chatted quite abit after the meal. Amanda talked about her portfolio that she needed to complete for her application to Arts and Design Media course. Hope she can finish in time! Anyway we just had a very nice catch up in mad jacks. Felt like we were in Bintan hahaha. Left the place at about 5. Chionged home because i was too tired I needed to crash. came home and slept till 11 hahaha. Spent the night watching HK dramas with mom then slept again.

21 March 2011
Woke up at 10 plus and we all headed to Jurong Point for our Crystal Jade Lunch. I just got my first pay so yeah it was a treat for my relatives :) As usual, yummy xiao long bao and some pork dumpling hehe. XLB is the reason why i will never give up eating pork hahaha. After lunch, we lingered around for a while before we all went our separate ways. Aunt Alice, Grandma and parents went to sit on the Flyer, while Felicia Felina and I went with Yen Ling jiejie and nieces. She treated us to manicure and pedicure hehehe I LOVE MY NAILS SO MUCH :):) Then they dropped me off at Lavender for dance. Dance felt quite sian today. I hope the item is going to be good really.

OKAY GONNA APPLY FOR UNI NOW.

2011-03-17T22:06:00.000-07:00

Have been helping Lindsay with her school work since Tuesday. I wouldnt call myself a tuition teacher because i only teach her stuff that she cannot understand/do. Oh well. I really hope she can make it to express stream. PSLE no joke also man. Speaking of PSLE, the standards have REALLY gone up. Pri 5 kids are already starting to use the calculator. AND pri 6 kids have already learnt simultaneous equations. what is the world coming to?! I only learnt simultaneous equations when i was sec 1. How do they expect the kids to understand.. sigh. I salute kids these days man. So much more capable than us. Lindsay is quite a busy 12 yr old actually. Apart from having sessions with me for 2 hours every tues and thurs night, she has tuition classes everyday. Poor girl. I only had science tuition in primary school. How fortunate. Actually I think she isn't stupid, but rather, not motivated to study YET. i'd use yet because i really hope to be able to motivate her to study and chiong for PSLE willingly because then its most productive. Sigh, but then again, she's only a pri 6 kid. I started serious studying and motivated myself only in sec 4when i did so badly for my sec 3 EOY. Who am i to expect a pri 6 kid to actually be motivated to study?

Work has been pretty alright now. Im getting used to the stuff we do. But i STILL get lost in G-drive. So annoying. Have been completing many Form B1s these two weeks. Drafting, amending, finalising. yup thats pretty much what i do at Deloitte. Yes I am pretty bored of working already. Not at Deloitte, just sick of the working life. I have so little time for myself and my friends as compared to when we were all studying and seeing each other was a daily affair. But oh well, life's like that. Gotta grow up. #hategrowingup.

Have been dancing pretty much lately as well, considering that i havent dance since Blaze. Joined PA talents and yup we're having a performance soon on the 27th April for Danzpeople recital. I think the item is.. idk man. Just not satisfying as compared to Blaze :/ But whatever it is, I'll still do my best because I want to perform on stage again :)

AND yay lunch this Sunday at Crystal Jade! :D Yeah, cus i got my first pay already. So, gonna give cousins and close relatives a treat! First pay comes only once in a lifetime so.. gotta celebrate! hahaha okay lame. I just wanna eat xlb la can?! hehe

Yeah, you can probably tell. I've got nothing specific to blog about hence the random and increasingly shorter paragraphs. I'll just blog la, cus i hope to read back when i grow up. I think its gonna be really memorable :)

2011-03-16T17:39:00.000-07:00

Planned to arrive at the office early just so i could do up an entry. But hm, im guessing from the time (8.40 am) now, that I dont have much time. In fact, im supposed to be doing work already! #badass

But heck, Senior manager's not here yet and Manager behind me has her back facing me so... hehe.

A LEVEL RESULTS ARE FINALLY OUT. okay, I didnt think of blogging that but i saw my previous post and im like, okay fine need to blog so i can read back next time :) So, I got back my results alr. And, I think ive got mixed feelings. Because, my grades arent excellent, nor are they bad. Which is why, I have mixed feelings as mentioned! In all honesty, im super happy for my chem and math. I've finally gotten an A for my favourite subs and the two subs that I've put most effort in. They both came as a shock to me because firstly, the chem paper was a killer. BEFORE YOU JUDGE ME AND SAY IM SOME COCKY BASTARD you better let me finish. I swear, the paper was so tough. And it was testified by everybody who came out and started complaining, some even cried, about the paper. And of cus, the whole dofu-cambridge-cant-spell LOL. Actually, idk what the hype is all about. I mean, its just Dofu la. So what if its not Tofu?! Its not even critical in chemistry. Get over it la. Okay anyway, so yeah, Im really blessed and very fortunate to have obtained an A. And I attribute my achievement to teachers who've accompanied me on this journey: Mrs Toh (YAY T26 HAD A TOTAL OF 12 As FOR A LEVELS HIAKHIAK) and Mr Yang. Without yall, i wouldnt have gotten my A. okay and my caraven teacher, Mr Gwee hahaha.

Then come math. I thought the paper was pretty alright. BUT WHEN I HEARD EVERYBODY GETTING LIKE 80-90 PLUS AFTER THEY CHECKED THEIR ANSWERS ONLINE, my heart sank. I did not expect scores like that for myself at all. And by pretty alright, i meant like at most 70plus80. So yeah, i was so frightened and demoralised when surrounding people were like 'Math confirm A already'. okay well, I got an A eventually. One, either i was real smart, or two, i was real lucky. Im inclined to believe in the latter. Honestly. I think it wasnt because i was smart, it was cus the others made more careless mistakes/presentation mistakes hence they lost the marks. But aiya, Im just again, very glad and thankful to have gotten an A for math. AND YES MS CHIA ROCKS MY SOCKS BIG TIME. Seriously, thank you ms chia. you're the best math teacher i've ever had. You're always so patient with us and idk how but you have a way of entertaining us yet making sure we dont step over the line. (Y)

okay not-so-good stuff now. B for econs! hey considering that i never got above a D in school before, i should be pretty proud of a B hahaha. I loved econs, but i can never seem to get the answers. I never had a plan in my head everytime i see an essay question. I just write something down and slowly just write whatever that comes to my mind. Bad move, bad move. Thats why i got B lor. but anyway, hehe still happy la! :)

BAD STUFF - bio and gp. Okay Cs for both. I admit, really ugly scores. Fine la, i admit that I always suck at these two subs. But I thought the bio paper was manageable! sigh, memorising just isnt enough. GP? okay la I never studied for GP at all i.e never read consistently like my dad and Mr wee would chant. And my flair for writing has always been... hm. I would say i dont have any flair hahahaha. You can tell from the way i type la. I was hoping and praying for at least a B tho. Sigh. These two subs were really disappointing. BUT OKAY NVM MOVE ON CANDICE MOVE ON.

That pretty much sums up my A level results.

Now that A level results are released, everybody is busy choosing their uni courses and visiting open houses etc. I have made my choice too! Im gonna try business or Accountancy in all three unis. Hopefully at least one would accept me. Actually, i wanna go to NTU. NTU PLEASE ACCEPT ME TYVM.

2011-03-01T16:43:00.000-08:00

Since nobody is in the office yet, I shall take this time to blog.

okay, so its obvious, this post is gg to be about A levels. Yes, we're getting our results on Friday, 4 March 2011. I dont even have the slightest clue to what my results will be like. Okay, fine, maybe a little. But i choose not to believe what i think will be. In all honesty, Im not gg to make it to my intended courses. Then this part of me still hopes and prays for miracles to happen, like O levels. I dont have to get excellent grades, I just need sufficient grades to get into a decent course. Im really afraid of humiliation, demoralisation and letting my parents/teachers down. But most of all, Im afraid of disappointing myself. Im afraid that God's plan to get me into the jc of my dreams, will just be a passing phase of happiness, bliss and recognition of my hardwork. Idk if He's gonna make me fall real hard this time round. I keep picturing myself getting shit grades and then chionging home just to lock myself in my room and cry till I feel sleepy enough to sleep. This pressure and suspense is too intense really. But i cant say it out loud. Its gg to sound so loserish. I kinda hope that Friday will come asap and let whatever thats gg to happen, happen to me now so I no longer have so many thoughts to distract me. But on the other hand, i dread that day and i wish it'd just be over and done with. See, dilemma again. REALLY hate dilemmas. My mind is gg to be so disturbed from now till Friday. Sigh, someone save me please.

Okay, on a lighter note, Im gg to take leave for Thursday and Friday(of cus) YAY :D We're planning to go back to CJ for lunch yumm. I miss the yong tau foo uncle, western auntie/uncle and the fish soup auntie.. NOT. I only miss their food hehe. NEH kidding la walao dont judge me tsk. Im not sucha person k. hehe. Then we're gg to visit Ms June Koh from the bio dept too hahahaha. Hope she's doing well :) Hope to bump into some teachers like Ms Chia, Mr Yang, Mrs Toh, and Mr San!! hahaha then we can have our story telling session w Mr San again. Tho this time, we wont have to rush or end our convo early cus we have to get back to THE DAMNED LIBRARY. ohhhh reminds me of Hagrid. heheh.

Yes, you've done your best, but is your best enough? That is a constant qn thats intruding my mind so frequently.

Sigh, im still brooding over the same old issues. What the hell right, why cant i just get over it.

2011-02-22T17:14:00.000-08:00

Feeling pretty annoyed now. I don't like the changes im beginning to experience around me. I dont get how possessive some people can get. I dont understand why people dont respond and leave the issue hanging in the air. I dont want to be the one experiencing those changes. Yes, I might be the one changing instead. But I highly doubt so. My life has been pretty stagnant for a very long while. Which assures me in some way or another that i've not changed. Then okay fine, some may say im the only one who's not changing when EVERYBODY else has changed. So, somehow, it always boils down to me. Why? Idk man, but fuck it.

Lets talk about something more uplifting instead. I've finally began to dance again. And im really very happy over it. I got into PA Talents's hip hop club, so now i get to dance every sun for two hours :D instructor will be Patrick Loo. But for the first lesson that i went, it was Joo Teng (Jootz). I really enjoyed Joo Teng's class. I loved the choreography and the way he's so patient with us. Great teacher there (Y) Now i cant wait for every sunday :)

Okay, something more depressing next. I signed up for Grade 6 theory classes as well. Every Sat noon. Mom said I should finish it as well. Thats not funny, its another 3 more grades to go. And my theory has always been worst than my practical. Oh well, gotta buck up! I do wanna complete this whole damned thing asap. Oh, I think my parents have already decided my career for me. Yes, a piano teacher. I am sure of my willingness and interest in that field. No, I definitely not want to become a full-time piano teacher (if i can even make it). Firstly, I dont want to cause my future students to suffer, fail their exams and spend so much money engaging such a incapable teacher like me. Secondly, i honestly have no interest. As simple as that. Yes, mom said big bucks. Easy big bucks. I could do part-time... Because my heart is still very much inclined towards the corporate world. I really have to give it a shot before I choose anything else. hehe my powersuit <3

Actually, this is going to sound ironic, but i secretly feel like re-taking my grade 8 practical exam again. I am so embarassed of my results. I got only 102, which is an extremely miserable pass (100 to pass, 120 for merit, 130 for distinction). The reason why i wanna re-take is because I am not convinced thats the best i can do judging from my grade 7 dist. I am not boasting, nor trying to be cocky. Im just being honest with myself. I know i have the capability if i really do practice. I do put partial blame on my A levels for squeezing so much time and effort out of me, thus leaving me dry and tired for any other commitments. Thus, i MAY retake. Tho i must consider deeply because the decision involves huge sums of money, time and effort all over again.

Im so glad im dancing again really. I cant express how much i enjoy dancing, doing awesome choreography by really capable people. My deepest wish would be to perform on stage once again. I hope i have the chance. I miss standing on stage, in front of the entire crowd, feeling so god damn nervous but yet excitement is screaming to burst out of my chest. Yes, I loved those times. And the satisfaction with standing ovation at the end. HAHAHA no kidding thats too extreme. But the applause at the end of the show always makes me feel SO GOOD. So, im looking forward to the day i get to perform again :)

alrighto gotta go shit now hehe.

2011-01-25T21:59:00.000-08:00

Sian there is nothing to do now, which explains my presence here. Second week into working at Deloitte and im starting to wish uni started earlier. But that would also mean bringing the results earlier. Nope, dont really want that. really.

Anyway i did a service initiation on my own today :) hehe no longer pestering to ask Perry to teach me. Training today was damn sian also. They taught us to use this new system which still needed pretty much ammendments and rectifications to the numerous errors -.-

I want to buy a dress pants (shit is there a 's' at pants?). Idk if its called dress pants for girls, but yeah i want those kinda business pants :) hehe.

English deterioating by the day. Idk if i even got that spelling right -.-

I want to go back to schooling. Really. The best job anyone can have is being a student.. right?

2011-01-20T16:46:00.001-08:00

Since i have nothing to do now at work, i might as well blog. I dont have my diary with me so i'll just blog whatever i can remember..

1) WORK
Today's the 5th day working at Deloitte already. I must say its quite an experience. I am learning so much everyday. The work we do arent exactly very interesting, nor is it boring. It's just that i dont have the interest in their content, i.e tax. Im in the tax department and all they do is computate tax concessions, prepare documents (alot) for clients, call clients for their tax briefing etc. So yeah, basically everything revolves around that. During my course of work here, i learnt alot about Singapore's tax system. its nothing like econs, where we learnt about GST as indirect taxes etc. Its more business-like i feel. We learn about the various criteria that the assignees have to meet before they can apply for tax concessions which i think is the NOR scheme. I have not done that yet so im not that sure. Then Deloitte will use some weird formulas which IRAS provides(i think) and computate the amount of tax these assignees have to pay and stuff. There's really so much to learn about tho not exactly very interesting but oh well, adds on to general knowledge i guess. So for this past week, we have attended two training sessions for two mornings where we were 'lectured' about the singapore income tax system etc. They also taught us how to use the tracker, some mega database where its accessible to all involving parties, including the assignee's host country's own Deloitte. sheez bad english. For the first day, Janice's aunt brought us to Amoy market (hawker) for lunch. The lunch crowd is omg i have nothing to say man. And the way people chope thier seats is pretty humorous. Its always either tissue paper packets/umbrellas. It was Amoy for the second day as well. For the third day, Jan, Chng Yan and i got sick of the crowd so we had subway instead. haha. Ohhh, Chny Yan is another temp working at Deloitte. There are like 30+ temps in total. The guys are 2 years older than us and have finished serving NS. Yesterday, we had lunch with 4 other male colleagues and they brought us to Maxwell market. It was less crowded there tho further from our office. Okay, im thinking of paragraphing cus this paragraph looks a little too long. but aiya, heck. Going to work in the morning via the MRT is really unplesant. The trains are always packed to the maximum where you have physical contact with everyone directly around you. Im always treated to all kinds of smells (i wouldnt use scent)throughout my journey :( Today's Friday. I cant wait for dinner tonight. We're finally meeting everyone again :) Its gonna be dinner as Astons and dessert at Ben and Jerrys using the $80 voucher Janice won from the lucky draw during prom. hehe.

speaking of Ben and Jerrys, they called me again for the interview haha. I missed their call and they emailed me. But, oopsy, Im employed already :)

I cant wait for Saturday as well! Gonna head for some badminton playing with June Ashley Almeric and others :) Then its steamboat at night! :D cant wait!!

Now that we're all working, its really difficult to meet up :( i miss my classmates so so much. I miss ALL of us in our mini classroom at the end where we have so much retarded moments. For example, squatting down to pretend whenever Mrs Toh asks us to clean the classroom, or saying its econs period whenever she asks for our next period, which always happens to be break tsk. hahaha. Fond memories which i will always, always hold on to.

2)Huilak's house
Went to HuiLak's house in JB to stay over on last Saturday. It was amazing. I mean his house. Its like a freaking mansion and his dog is hugeeee! but beautiful :) He has this entertainment room, solely for movies, games etc. Its already bigger than my living room -.- haha imagine that man! So the guys got drunk, we played mahjiong and well, food. Didnt do much but i had fun with Jan :)

okay, this post shall end here before my boss sees me blogging heh. Imma go look for him now...

2010-12-26T00:30:00.000-08:00

Christmas was pretty dull this year.

Had a AES gathering on the 23rd at sche's house. hmm i love my black dress and my heels hehe. anw, it was the usual stuff, food gift exchange street fighter star wars. I prefered the gathering at pl's bbq. i felt less out of place. but still, thank you sche for organising this party. its always tough on the organisers.

on the eve of christmas, i cant rmb what i did except that edwin mom dad and i went to chinatown for steamed fish head. We ordered two, and the neighbouring people were staring at us :S ah well, its pretty normal actually. we always get such stares when we order huge servings. then we had a short walk around chinatown and somehow, it felt great.

On christmas, it was a T26 gathering at joel's house. Greenbank park oh god it was so deep inside its impossible to get in without a car. and i realised how near joel's house was to my house haha. His house is big, but really cosy. I loved it. Anw it was food gift exchange street fighter also. haha. Not much of celebrating Christmas but i think it was a nice gathering. I do miss my classmates alot. A pity not all turned up.

im not in the mood to blog, which explains why im not elaborating much as i'd usually do. Idk why but im feeling frustrated, angsty. I dont like times like these. Makes me feel so uncomfortable for no reason.

2010-12-21T21:27:00.000-08:00

"I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same"

cant wait for christmas! :D

2010-12-19T18:42:00.000-08:00

Monday 13th
Arrived at Tokyo. Took a bus to our first hotel. Then it was free and easy in this shopping mall where we had our own dinner. Ate chicken ramen mmm was damn good! then we saw this guy playing the sexaphone while the woman was playing the piano. the music was wonderful and i swear sexaphones are so sexy haha. back to hotel and that was the end of the first day because much time was spent on the flight.

Tuesday 14th
Took a domestic flight to Hokkaido. First stop was ainu village. took photos and watched some mini performances by the ainu people. We saw bears and dogs and dried salmon. Back to hotel for dinner. buffet was good we attacked the crabs and beef! hahaha it was the long-legged crabs. damn sweet and nice. beef was so tender. back at the hotel, we tried the hotspring. it was pretty awkward at first because we had to strip naked but after a while it was fine because everyone was naked as well. the guys and girls were separated. We had to wear the robe provided in the hotel room with our undergarments with the slippers provided as well. so first was to strip naked and place our clothes in the baskets provided. Then walk into the shower area to wash ourselves up with the small tower first. They had this mayu shampoo haha it was good! Then we can soak ourselves in the hotsprings. There were a few of different temperatures. roughly 39 degrees was good. but 40 and above was scalding for me already. we can only soak for about 3-5 mins per hotspring. then we have to get up and rest for a while before gg in again. you can only soak for a total of 15mins. wash up again before gg out to get dressed. Then we spammed water because we were perspiring and it was said to be very dehydrating. The facilities were damn good, there were various hair lotions, hair dryer, sterilised combs, and this water cooler. Back to hotel and it was a good sleep because the hotspring made us really tired. this hotel didnt have beds but only traditional japanese style mattresses. i think its called tatami? idk how you spell it.

Wednesday 15th
went to this red and green monster place. saw the 80 degrees natural hotspring with sulphur smell, in the middle of some moutains lol! the weather was damn cold btw. Bus to Ninja place where we watched two performances which we didnt understand cus it was in japanese -.- Ninja was damn cool! today was the coldest throughout the entire trip. My toes were freezing and numb. i couldnt stop trembling and my teeth kept chattering non stop haha. Then we visited this maze in one of the huts. it was uber cool!! there were tilted platforms which made you feel like you were falling sideways. plus the many mirrors which added on to the dizziness. haha. The snow was pretty heavy that day. Lunch at same ninja place but the food was the worst throughout the trip. It was so bland omg damn disgusting. But to snow mobile area. Yellow jacket, helmet, boots, gloves and scooter. Paired with Felina. She drove up an i drove down. it was like a scooter. it was awesome, tho i was obviously the more dangerous driver because i almost crashed into the scooter ahead of us hahhaha. We also stopped halfway in the mountains to take photos. the snow was so thick i just lied down on it. hahha great experience. snow was fluffy and soft^^ The view of the tall trees and the entire area covered with snow was amazing. Bus back to hotel. Hotel was jap style again with mattresses. Dinner at 6, was buffet again, pretty sian alr. Then we went up to rest for a while. was supposed to rest for 15 mins before gg to the hotspring. but we slept for 2 hours haha. Then we got dressed and walked to the hotspring in the hotel. It was crazy today. The hotspring was so bloody hot i couldnt go in. I felt like a naked chicken boiling -.- it was really too hot for me, somewhat scalding. Bad experience. Went back to our room to pack. Felicia fell sick while felina and i went down to the lobby to use wifi.

Thursday 16th
Breakfast buffet in hotel again. Went to this bear ranch to see the mega tall bears eating apples that were thrown down my the visitors. They were locked up in enclosures that were so low we had to bend down to see the bears. Lunch was BBQ at some place which was super cold. we sad on chairs with the BBQ net on a small container in front of us. Gugu bought us brownies ^^ Hotel sun palace was damn huge. North South wing all. There was a shopping mall inside the hotel -.- And there was this damn beautiful majestic merry go round. Took a mini monorail which was connected to the hotel and the snow activities area. i think the entire area was part of the hotel. We walked up this snow hill where we sat on a tube individually and slid down the slope. hahha it was uber fun!! its called snow tubing. Then we continued playing snow, lying down in the snow and trying to make an angel by swiping our limbs left and right, up and down to make the mould on the snow. Next we proceeded to play the snow rafting. We sat in a banana boat tied to a snow mobile like a motorbike where it would send us flying from side to side. damn shiok man. The guy gave us extra rounds when Felina and i kept screaming haha damn high. Back to hotel, shopped inside, had a chat with the two tourguides xiaoyang and philip. Xiaoyang was our tour guide while philip was for the other group. Xiaoyang came from taiwan and studied in Japan before marrying a Japanese wife and settled in Hokkaido, while philip was a singaporean who also studied in japan and married a Japanese wife. They were so entertaining when they acted retarded. And they both guessed that i was the youngest of all three -.-

Friday 17th
went to this place where there was a natural water source from the mountains. it was said to contain more minerals. The scenery was beautiful. Lunch was seafood steamboat. Tried the king crab which cost about 200 plus. freaking expensive. and the meat was so jelly i thought it was pretty disgusting. Headed to Otaru. They had so many glass handmade products including musical boxes. The shop was so mesmerising. Tried the famous Hokkaido ice cream and yummmmm it was damn good! especially chocolate and banana flavour. Next was the bai se lian ren factory. Took alot of photo with the mini cottages haha super nice. Then we went for some shopping along the streets and bought the bai se lian ren chocolates with 10% discount. Dinner at some BBQ place again. Ate the Kobe beef which costs 100plus for only small plate. it was damn expensive but man it was DAMN GOOD!

Saturday 18th
Visited the wet market today. They practically sold all the same stuff. Mega huge salmons, king crabs, and dried provisions like scallops. Stopped by some square where they sold alot of Christmas handmade items. It was so beautiful but photography wasnt allowed. We each bought necklaces with snowflake pendants. then we went to the city area for more shopping. Underground mall and Daimaru. Lastly we shopped at the factory outlets. The GAP stuff was really cheap. There were many other brands, all at discounted rates. But most sold winter wear so we couldnt shop also. Back to hotel which was in the airport -.- ahaha was so convenient the next morn.

Sunday 19th
Plane back to Singapore. Dinner at bedok with all plus grandma. Home sweet home.

I really had alot of fun on this wonderful Hokkaido trip. The sceneries were breathtaking. Food and lodging was really good as well. We made friends with this family of 7 with 3 kids. Shaw Fong who's 8, Shien en who's 6 and cheng siang who's 2.5 haha. They all had really special names. The rest of the tour group was pretty antisocial so we also didnt really talk to them. It was great bonding time with my cousins. A pity my family didnt go. I hope my family can go see snow together next time. Okay im tired of blogging alr. Thats all for this post :)

2010-12-12T05:27:00.000-08:00

Food was good today. Especially godmum's curry. All time fav man. Haha. I had alot of food, fruits and ice cream^^ played badminton for awhile with my cousins haha. It was great bonding time and it just brings back alot of childhood memories.. We used to play at the playground or under the void deck every weekend. On sats, we will even play into the wee hours. But we had fun. Haha. Also Cus we a stayed in the same block. Bangkit road. I miss my old house. It was a mansionette. Haha and I rmb how the five of us will dance to hi-5 all day. We even made props to imitate the actual dance all hahaha. We also used to play princess stuff. Like we'd pretend to be princeses with extremely long hair (using towels tied to our short ponytail) Ahahaha. Then a blanket over the table as our secret room where there were secret codes only the princesses knew. Which was basically all of us luh cus nobody wanted to be the maid/slave haha. Ohoh or how we will put a mattress on the staircase and then attempt to slide down hahaha.

Hmmm I had a great childhood. Amazing one in fact, great seems like an understatement. My parents never expected anything above average results. So long as I was an average student, they'd be contented. When I got 226 for psle, they were so happy because I got above 200. Then O levels came. They were hoping that I could get into a JC, any one will do. Preferably PJ because it's cut off point is lower and it's located near my house. CJ was the ultimate dream. Mom prayed for 13-15 points. And when I got 9, they were overjoyed. I was too. Then our dream came true and I really became a CJcian. And I'm proud of it. I'm just very lucky to have parents who never give me pressure. Just a sudden reflection.

Yay gg Hokkaido tmr!! :D gotta reach the airport by 6am. The flight would be around 8am. Hmm and we're gg to do some shopping inside changi before boarding the plane cus we don't have to pay the damned GST. Hahaha I miss econs. But I forget like half of it already. Sian. Bio's worser. Haha but I'll definitely not be using bio anymore so.. Ahh wdv.

Okay gotta finish watching my season 2 till episode 11 before I sleep. Episode 12 is only available next year damnnnnn.

2010-12-10T17:17:00.000-08:00

Waking up to having sore throat and the chills, plus gg off tk hokkaido Tmr isn't cool at all :( oh man. I still have some Christmas pressies I have to get before gg. Sigh.

Right, back.

Bpp to alter my jeans, jurong point to settle the Christmas shopping, dinner with parents at zhenghua (their salad prawns suck btw) and vamp diaries episodes 6,7,8 of season 2 till now. Advanced Christmas celebration at yen Qi jiejie's house tmr. Hope it's gonna be fun. Alright gotta sleep so I'm nearer to breakfast I'm starving :( goodnight.

2010-12-10T09:42:00.000-08:00

Ahh today was good indeed! Haha. Met zh at far east to change my jeans before meeting Marcus and mark at heeren. Ori joined us as kfc and we had a mini celebration for marcus's belated birthday. It was really mini ahahahaha. Sorry Marcus. Then we trained down to the esplanade where we lepaked and played monopoly deal on the roof terrace. Pretty tough game to comprehend but I think I'm getting the hang of it. Next was dinner at newton with zh jere Wy and Ori. Hokkien mee, carrot cake, stingray, chicken wings, satays. Oh and aloe Vera mango for desserts mm ~ waited for like 45 minutes for 700 but the bus was just too packed we couldn't get up. Jere and I eventually took the train to somerset where the earlier bus stop was behind 313. Finally got up the bus.

Just witnessed how mishandling a relationship can lead to dire consequences. I hope for the best for the parties involved. And I've also learnt the importance of making clear your stand. Hm. Reflection for the day. Take care all. It'll be over soon I hope.

2010-12-09T23:08:00.000-08:00

Hm, I feel like doing another blog post. Third one today already.
I don't know what to blog about. I just feel like talking to myself heh. My brother took my iPod to universal studios so maybe that's why I'm so bored waiting for the damned 700 to arrive.

I'm really afraid of my results next year. I have minimal confidence as compared to O levels. It's worrying and even tho I'm supposed to enjoy my post A levels break, it's weighing on my subconscious mind. I just wanna get into a university. It's gonna be suicidal if I have to retake. Hope not, really.

As for work, J J and I applied at Ben and jerrys two days ago. I hope I get the job. It looks fun and I wanna enjoy myself. Mom's gonna he'll me find little kids to con them of their parents money Ahahaha. Neh just tutoring primary school kiddos. And I'm gg to start paving the way to becoming a part time piano teacher by starting with little beginner kids again hahaha. Gonna start with listening and singing. Sounds pretty exciting to me.

Cant wait for Christmas and new year and Chinese new year. Okay bad English. I meant, Christmas, new year, and Chinese new year heh. Love the consecutive festivals at this time of the year. Hmmm I can almost feel the sugee cookies melting in my mouth ahh what a bliss (:

I am tired of blogging using my iPhone but the damned bus isnt here yet. Right.. That's cus I missed the earlier one just when I alighted from the lrt -.-

There's this hot girl beside me hehe. Love her legs!

2010-12-09T13:41:00.000-08:00

Dearest iPod classic... When are you gonna come to mama sigh. I need money. Lots of it. I need to start tuition. I need to start with beginners at piano. I need to con little kids of their money. Neh kiddin. I need to exercise. I need to stop thinking. I need answers. I need assurances. I need recognitions. I need acceptance. I need a hot bod. I need so many fucking things.

It's been long since I last said fuck. Ever since I entered CJ I stopped. And it was great swearing all over again that night at pl's BBQ. What's life without swearing? I mean, it's not as sinful as the goody kids see it to be. It's just another fucking word damnit. Maybe I'm just bringing the aes in me. After all, i couldn't have gotten this far into a JC if not for aes. Say aes is bad/notorious etc and I say fuck you. Cus that's not us. Yehyeh ahlian wdv. You already seem so pathetic when you judge people based on their appearances. Dye hair? Nehh sick of explaining myself. I mean, what's the point anyway. Just hang on dearly to your "ehh she has dyed hair omg ahlian" belief cus you'll just look extr stupid to me. Nope, you have never heard of something called natural.

I still can't sleep. So many things rummaging through my mind. But one idea does stand out. I don't have go change for anybody. Why are people always trying to change to suit someone else? I dont understand. Why are people always gg on a wild goose chase in search of what they want when all they need has always been there.

Yeh, just unloading the sudden wave of emotions intruding my attempted sleep. Ahh screw it need to sleep and wake up to a bright and beautiful and sunny and loving and meaningful day heehee (:

2010-12-09T13:17:00.000-08:00

It's 5 in the morning and im wide awake. Nope its not that I haven't slept or have insomnia. In fact I slept too early at like 8pm so now I'm the only idiot awake -.- bren's birthday today. Happy birthday Bren! Tho we will never be able to go back to how we were in sec 3, I still enjoy our current status.

I'm so afraid of taking just one wrong step.

No plans till Hokkaido on monday. Sigh boriiiing. I wanna eat tze char and prata. Oh and ice cream tooooo anybody up for it?? Haha.

2010-12-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

feels good to be back.

yeh, A levels is finally over. The time we've all been waiting for.

Prom. Started shopping for prom during the 9 days break that we had before our last paper. The first day was futile, but subsequent days got better. Eventually picked a navy blue toga dress which is simple, and not revealing, something very comfortable. 118. nope, not cheap at all. but you dont give a shit when its post A levels. Prom was fun, with zhouquan entertaining everyone of us with his dance haha. The food was alright, tho idk why most said it sucked. Amos and Amanda Chia were the well-deserved prom king and queen. She was gorgeous, mature and feminine. hm, something i should work towards if i dont wanna be left on the shelve. Did manicure for the first time with J J O. I chose the dark blue colour with glitter on it and june named it the galaxy -.- haha how lame. She did the same one but with red. Ori and Jan both did french manicure, was good looking too. June and i did our hair at Bukit Panjang before cabbing to marina bay sands where huilak booked a class hotel. Jan's dad sent us from mbs to Meritus Mandarin for prom. As usual, the highlights were camwhoring and just trying not to fall with the 4 inches heels. Post prom was even better. Went back to mbs where we played cards and relived the cambodia times with heart attack sessions haha. Additional guests were Zhou Quan, Yuxun, Reko, etc who joined us in the fun. Mark and I took a nice night stroll half way through the night, or early in the morning rather, when we got pretty lonely haha. June wasnt back from her time with Malcolm, Jan and Reko went out halfway, while the 8 others were engaging in monopoly deal. Then came the drinking session. Jeremy was hell funny haha it was epic. Marcus was drunk too, tho he keeps denying it haha. i guess they were all letting go for the night. I didnt drink at all, and at times im worried. I dont like the bitter taste of alcohol. I dont think its in any way enticing for me. yet. maybe. I guess i was the only one who didnt drink. oh well. Then the drunkards went to bed after much persuasion from Zhihao and Aik Seng, our nannies haha. The rest of us sought comfort by sitting along the glass walls, wanting to watch the sun rise. Tho in the end, the sun rose from the other side ahaha. oh well, it was still a nice time sitting there till it was morning. Went up to the skypark while the drunkards were still dead. It was hell amazing but freaking cold as well. I was really amazed by the pool. it was the 57th floor btw. haha. After the rest washed up, they headed to town for breakfast while I took 700 home. I was really shagged and i slept on 700, almost missing my stop. The lrt was so cold it felt like i was walking into a refrigerator when i stepped in. Hurried home and ate maggie for breakfast before crashing dead till 7pm. Dad and Mom fetched me to Peilin's house for her birthday bbq. It was a great time of catching up and just spending time with friends whom i havent seen/talked to in a very long while because of A levels. Great assumption or 4/1 gathering. Lepaked at railway mall with bren sche tim mund marc till 1 plus before gg home. That was prom plus post prom.

05/12/10
Went Jurong Point for christmas/winter shopping with Gugu and cousins. It was good family time and i enjoyed it very much as well. Looking forward to the Hokkaido trip with them =)

06/12/10
Went to apply for a job at Ben and Jerrys with Jan and June. Bpp with June again and as usual, we had kfc cheese fries plus popcorn chicken. yummm.

07/12/10
JB trip with June and Jan. Took 170 and to my surprise, it was pretty fast, not as time consuming as i expected it to be. Her mom brought us for Bak Kut Teh for lunch and then Holiday Plaza for dvds again haha. Halfway through her mom fell sick and we went to her house first. Cancelled the shopping cus her mom seemed like she was in a pretty bad shape. In the evening, her mom treated us to tze char for dinner. cereal prawns, hotplate tofu, not-so-spicy chilly crab with mantou gahhhhh we literally raped the crab man. hahaha. awesome dinner! cabbed home with Jan while daddy picked me up at Rochor Center.

08/12/10
Sentosa with KOJIN! vivo at 9 with amos almo yzelman and kingman. Left siloso beach for vivo in the afternoon. Watched the movie, Megamind with djong also. The storyline is pretty dumb but the show was really cute haha. Ben and Jerrys after that and we spent a long time lepaking there. Then subway for dinner, while par and yzelman left. The remaining four of us went up to the park and lepaked for a loooong time man. haha. and we had our horrer-movies-plot sharing session. Shutter freaked me out. haha. oh, and i forgot to mention about the sunburnts. argh.

09/12/10
Finally fell sick -.- I spent the whole day settling prom photos and stuff till i got bored, and i had the urge to blog again, so here i am. Its stay-home day today.

I dont know where we're heading. or if theres even a direction. It is not realistic i know, but idk whats in your mind.

p.s It is so ironic when my friends' plus-ones text me for advices and stuff, when im the only single one in the whole clique. hmm.

2010-09-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

Prelims round 1.
BIO was alright, but apparently from Mr Goh, i think we didnt do well again sigh. CHEM was damn hard i was so sad i cried :( ECONS was ok for the first case study but i felt that the second was tougher. and strangely, the H1 and H2 had the same qns. MATH was damn hard too i was so sad again :(

SEP HOLS
basically, June Wy Ori all went back to sch everyday. hahaha oh the frisbee people also haha. Dinner was kfc on Thurs and oh god i swear just listening to the frisbee people's conversation could entertain us throughout. they were freaking funny and lame esp the way they suan each other hahahahaha. interesting bunch of people. The canteen's really a nice place to study when its dead quiet. Friday was the best. Hari raya so only a handful went back to sch to study. hahaha.

PRELIMS round 2. Its gg to be tougher. w all the P2s/P3s. ok, fine and paper 1 for bio and chem. JY candiceeeeeeeeee!

Piano exam on the eighteenth. die die.

2010-09-10T20:18:00.000-07:00

wow wow.
Lets start from Myes.
hm, didnt do well at all. Was only a little glad for Chem and econs cus im finally seeing mini results. the rest? gah.

Everybody's having so many consultations these days. yup, we're all panicking. After the terrible session with __ which i totally freaked out, i went to look for Mr Yang w jingkuang. holly cow he's damn patient and nice. really. It didnt matter whether the qns i asked were retarded or brainless, he still patiently taught me. pow wow wow. I must say he's an interesting guy too. He showed us the CSI video on 'dissolving body' and explained the chemistry behind it hahaha i knew that guy wasnt normal. as in, he's different, which is absolutely great. Plus, im not even his student. Its heartening to see how he helps every student, regardless of whether they're under him. plus point again. haha.

THINK CAREER DAY!! Mrs Loo (Cocoa Trees bossss) came and talked to us about how her husband and her started Cocoa Trees and all her difficulties. pretty interesting. Then ori and i went for the tourism talk where this middle aged man and a young lady spoke to us. hm, was alright. After that it was free and easy where we had lunch and we visited the booths in the audi. NTU and NUS business talks after that. yup, rather informative.

TEACHERS DAY CELEBRATION
woah shit. IT was hell of an experience man! first we had breakfast w Mrs Toh and Mr goh in class. hahahah it was quite fail actually hahaha. but well, we spent time camwhoring again as usual. hahaha. After that everyone had to go to the audi for the concert. GAHH DANCE WAS AWESMOE. SHIT MAN. REALLY DAMNNN GOOD. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNN GOOD. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN GOOD. (Y) We also had some quiz going on which i felt was damn lame and wasnt interesting at all cept for some. It was like they were trying to drag time -.- Oh, but that wasnt the worst thing about the concert. yup, it was the MC. god she was annoying everyone around me wanted to just bitch-slap her hahahahaha. well, she's open and daring yes, but i think its gg the wrong way. oh well. but still, credits for her effort though I felt that the teachers day concert last year was better.

20/08/10 FRIDAY
ASTONS W J J O WY! :D
Ended sch early and as usual, we went to camp at our respective hideouts, mainly the canteen, library and outside the library. holy cow that day was really scary. I opened my book, and then closed it. i really had no mood to study. i wasnt tired nor sleepy. just didnt wanna study at all. It was really scary cus i didnt know when that feeling would go away. Then zh tried to make me high but it didnt work. When they all went for H1 econs remedial, i went to the canteen thinking that a change of environment would do me good. indeed, i was ready to study again. But then, after 2 hours of stoning before that, i was so sleepy and i took a nap instead hahaha. Woke up and it was time to go for dinner!! :D But astons had a super long queue we ordered takeaways instead. hahaha they gave us plastic utensils and june broke hers so many times hahahah. Then ori and I rushed back to school for night study. Nerds i know. hahah.

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION
started off with games at the grandstand then the YOG dance. Potluck in the canteen w lots of singing and OMG DOM YAO. ok, here's what happened. Teachers vs Students soccer match. Dom Yao died after crashing into Ravi. or rather, Ravi crashed into him. he dislocated his arm and yeah, that pretty much spoiled our mood for the potluck as well. hahaha and we were all cursing __ hahaha. After the school left, we stayed in class all the way, just rotting our lives. hahaha it was damn fun though! first orbital in class w ipod connected to the speakers. Then we decided to go slide again!! Randy and i went to hunt for cardboards and when we returned, we saw amanda, june and hg gg crazy, dancing like nobody's business hahah. and i joined. shit we were super super high i cant describe and we left sch damn late.

2010-07-17T21:54:00.000-07:00

phew, the suspense of waiting for mye results is finally over.
I must say, im disappointed with my overall results. Especially bio which i got a friggin U. Its like back to square one. I thought that i could pass cus i attempted the revision package but.. sigh. Econs was one that made me happy cus i finally broke my record of straight Es, Ss and Us. though i only got a D hahahaha. but still, im super motivated for econs now! :D

Prelims in 6-7 weeks. Im really afraid. This is not O levels where hardwork is all i need to score. It takes like 10x the hardwork and brain cells. I. must. reach. my. target.

On a lighter note, i havent watched despicable me gahhhhh! i really wanna watch it :( June ori ash and mal went to watch on friday and i declined the invitation from june hahaha i mean, how could i crash such an outing? i'll be the odd one sticking out. hahaha. heh i hope none of them sees this :/

wy's is a mega big fat bitch la she put so much thoughts and possibilities into my head tsk hahahaha love those dialogues though ^^ but aiya, out of my league.

The only thing that im looking forward to is PE!! hehe when we learn the YOG dance :D but Mr San said we only have 2 more pe sessions. oh man :(

2010-07-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

10th July 2010
It was a relaxing Saturday. Econs tuition was postponed to Sunday so I only had Chemistry at Caraven in the evening. Read my international trade notes which i left untouched since before June hols. Hell lot of stuff to read through man. But im glad i started. Went for lunch w Edd and Mommy at greenridge. ahh the chicken chop rice was damn good! June fell sick so only Zhi Hao and i went in the evening. Mr Gwee did periodicity today! I could answer most of what was asked in the notes :) but then again, periodicity is a relatively easy topic compared to others like electrochem so, nothing to be happy about. Anyway, Dinner was excellent! Edwin brought us to bukit timah to feast on frogsssssssss hahahaha. frog leg porridge la. Sheeez it sounds gruesome and gross to eat frogs, but damn, they're good! Though you HAVE to eat without imagining that you're eating frogs. You can only think of them as any other meat, like chicken. hahahaha. Anw, all should go try. I have never eaten so much frog meat before cus usually when we order at the tze char stall, their serving is always very little. yummm.

11th July 2010
Sunday was hardcore man. 11-1 Math tuition, Lunch, then 230-430 Econs, and finally, piano from 530-630. I am so drained. But dinner was awesome!! (yes dinner again hehe) Mommy cooked Curry fish head and i ordered a plate of onion eggs. The Ong's Kitchen served our food within minutes and gahh i devoured SO much. Now I feel so bloated. haha OH OH OH OH then for fruits, we had MANGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! mango yknow!! wah freak it was damn sweet. hehe we bought two in the afternoon now there's still one more left :D hmm thats definitely for tmr night! =)

sian sch ends at 4 tmr. Double Gp too. suck cats. But at least there's PE. yay I hope we learn the YOG dance :D

2010-07-09T05:50:00.000-07:00

9th July 2010
CJC OLYMPIC GAMES 2010!
Took the damn early 966 bus to school and met rach law at cj's bus stop. Had a mini chat w them and it felt pretty good cus i havent seen the dancers in a long while.. Anyway we followed the crowd and took 153 to CCAB. Then we had this olympic oath thingy led by the YOG ambassadors while in actual fact, it was pretty much only Justin over the microphone and the rest of us looking absolutely dumb on the track, mumbling the words. Not to mention, most of us forgot the words too. oh well, it really felt damn weird cus no one could hear us plus we weren't saying at the same pace so.. was rather embarassing. hahaha. Anyway, we started the day off with the track events. I must admit, and im sure many would have the same opinion, that the teacher's race was most engaging one. hahahaha we cheered for a few teachers, mainly ms chia, MS HO HAHA the senior citizens brisk walk damn cute, Mr wee. aiya, actually i cant rmb but well, we really cheered alot for all the events. After the track events, we proceeded on with the olympic games. T26 played ultimate frisbee and mixed netball. mixed netball. mixed netball. WE GOT 2ND PLACE OMGGGGG! :D considering the fact that T26 were never good at ball games, we actually got through the semi-finals and finals!! hahaha but we still lost to T13 in the end. They were really much much faster than us haha. Oh btw, the J1s were the ones who fought hard for us into the finals, especially emily, fedeline, alex and one more which i cant rmb his name. The J2 players were mainly oriana, marcus, huigeok. anyhoots, in summary we did great la. hahahaha.

Headed to Adam's road for lunch w june jan ori wy hg. Had an interesting 'ghost' sharing session. thank god we had it in the day for if it was at night, i'd totally freak out. Then we continued our conversations to island creamery and i had my double scoop mango + fresh banana!! wow after such a long time man. It was HEAVENLY. Our conversations included topics like our perfect wedding, and of cus, non-stop of talking cock. haha.

Couldnt take the fatigue (cus i slept at 3am the day before) and 171-ed home where i dozed off on the bus, almost missing my stop in the end. Chionged home, took a nap for 3 hours and here i am.

Oh, while i was crossing a zebra crossing just now, i turned and looked at the driver who was an ang moh lady. Idk why but i just smiled at the lady and she smiled back at me! hahaha shitzsxz but it felt good for some reason. Smiles make more smiles :)

hokay, off for dinner. I love today. I really enjoyed myself. Its a great day off from books as well.

p.s mega cramps today :(

2010-07-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

04 July 2010
Started the day off with breakfast with mommy at Bangkit. Its been a long long time since i last had the Sunday morning free. My weekends were always bombarded with tuitions so i really enjoyed the freedom today. Came home and we started tidying our own rooms. cleared my wardrobe and I realised that many of my stuff were bought on impulse. tsktsk. Went for piano lesson in the evening though i was so tempted to cancel it since im supposed to be enjoying my holidays but argh, my exam is coming soon in august. sian. alrighto gg for dinner now w my my family^^

2010-07-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

2nd July 2010.
ZOOLOGY.
heh i rmb gg to the zoo when i was still a pri school kid, trying to finish the tasks given in the zoology card. well, yesterday i headed to the zoo w meimu! hehe. However, the sky was a bitch cus it started the raining the moment we reached. tsk. We went to kfc to kill time while waiting for the rain to stop. Butttttt it didnt stop raining at all :( so we just went in with our umbrellas throughout. hahaha. It was still pretty alright cus we managed to see many animals. and i especially love the giraffes! :D After about 4 hours we got really tired and went to IMM for dinner. and of cus, i ate my azabu sabo icecream! a pity they didnt have the mango flavour so i tried the banana chocolate one instead. Pretty good as well, but not as good as the mango one. Reached home and ended the day w a fever. nice. i always fall sick after exams.

3rd July 2010
Its a great saturday morning to sleep in with the chilly weather. I left the windows open so i could feel the breeze and some water droplets that splashed in. awesome.
I am embarassed to know that i still have tuition later, despite today being the 2nd day of my 4-day holiday. gahhh.

Karate kid and toy story 3 on monday. Im a lucky kid :)

2010-07-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

I almost forgot what my user id and password was. gosh, thats how long i havent blogged.

I was looking through one of my friend's blogshop and i was definitely impressed by the effort she put in into organising her online store :)

Mid Years have just gone by, and looking back, I did study during the June holidays, more than i ever studied for O levels or other exams. I have started working towards As, not just prelims or whatsoever, but the ultimate As and im proud of it. Though whether i'll be able to maintain the drive and motivation would then be another question to think about. But for now, I wanna pen down my thoughts about MYEs.

BIOLOGY:

I attempted the revision package for the first time and though difficulties were present throughout, I didnt give up and did manage to overcome some. However, i must say i started the revision package a little too late. And too much emphasis have i given to econs and chem, hence neglecting math and bio. I wish for a C for myes.

CHEMISTRY:

Well, I personally felt that the paper was do-able, just that i didnt have enough time and due to my carelessness prone character, many marks have gone down the drain. Nonetheless, i willcontinue to strive for my A that i desire for As. Lastly, credits to my tuition teacher, Mr Gwee.

MATHEMATICS:

Hm, like i said, i neglected math throughout the June holidays. My tuition teacher has been extremely patient with me, even going through the entire vectors w me all over again, as if i havent learnt it cus i have forgotten a great deal. I am grateful, for without her, i wouldnt have gotten an A for promos. Well, i sure hope for at least a B this time round, though complex raped me of at least, 10 marks? oops.

ECONS:

Ahh, the subject that i was the most keen on in J1. I have never gotten above an E for econs before and thus this time round i'll be hoping for at least a C.

Hokay enough of school.

I think we're drifting apart. I need to know that we're still alright sigh. I hope its only cus we're all too busy. Screw my over-sensitive trait. I miss yall in any case.

Its time to enjoy my well-deserved 4-day holidays after exams for 4 days and mugger-dog life for the month of June.

P.s You wont see this, but im glad to have you around, mei mu <3

ohhh HI AIKSENG if you're reading this. I know right, i FINALLY BLOGGED! hehehe.

2009-12-23T20:02:00.000-08:00

Maybe I was too naive in believing that the past would not repeat itself so long as i do my part.

2009-11-12T08:23:00.000-08:00

Its Friday the 13th tmr. and we're going to school for our promotional results in the PAC. hmm i have always felt that the PAC something that cjcians should be very proud of lol. anyway, lets hope all goes well tomorrow and it'll be the final closure for 2009 in CJC.

We have gone through so much this week, or rather these 2 days. It was a bad roller-coaster ride. Sudden, crazy and heart tormenting emotions felt by the 5 of us. Especially Edwin. Yeah i know how dejected you feel. Maybe its a test from God. Who knows tomorrow may turn out better? I'd never doubt your capabilities, and neither will the other 3 of them. You know how you've fared. Lets say the Lady Luck wasnt on your side as well as time. The timing was bad. But more importantly, i hope you pick yourself up and chiong for the next lap ahead. All's not over yet. Persevere. There are no boundaries.

anyway on a lighter note, hehe its your birthday party this saturday! :D wheeee cant wait! Drove to holland with eddie to get the party hats, banners, balloons, goodie bags etc. haha blue, silver and white balloons. i love the combination. Shall be decorating the house on Friday night ^^

alright its already 12.30am and we're collecting our results tmr. I should go to bed.

2009-11-03T05:14:00.001-08:00

i wonder if the creators of pw ever realise how stinky it is. suck cats. Im still working on my I&R draft 2. double suck cats.

i wanna watch jennifer's body! ooh ooh ~

i have this craving for al-ameen. cheese and mushroom prata with MILO DINOSAUR! (oh god i almost typed dinoRsaur).

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs

i never needed pain,i never needed strenght

My love for you was strong enough you should've known.

I never needed you for judgement

I never needed you to question what i spent

I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.

And it's a little late for conversations

There isn't anything that you can do.

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me

2009-11-02T18:32:00.000-08:00

OUTING WITH DANCERS

met up with Rachael, Jayne, Vanessa, Lawrence and Jonathan at marina for lunch at seoul garden. hmm i unleashed the beast in me and devoured much stuff together with Law and Jonathan. haha. They suggested kbox thereafter and we spent a few hours there. Was supposed to head for Tanjong Pagar after that but it was rather early. Went out of the station with rachael and law and continued our journey around cityhall. Rich Law bought stuffs at river island ^^ haha. basically we just walked around (lol!) before i went to meet belle and mic.

AMARA HOTEL

belle's mom picked me up at Tanjong Pagar before sending us to Amara. Joined pl, ed, ys, and james at sakae for dinner. we then went up the room to create havoc. haha. Belle and her idiotic games! Then they made everyone including pl and i (we dont drink -.-) to drink while playing the games tsk. haha red bull with vodka was disgusting. haha. anw we had a hell lot of fun camwhoring and all (haha pl's fhm cover pic). time passed so quickly pl and i had to leave. cabbed home and died on the bed at 1 plus.

A LEVELS MT EXAMINATION

yes i mentioned that i wanted nothing less than an A in my previous post. But i guess i'll have to settle for a B now cus i felt that it was tougher than promos and the mock exam. I was caught by surprise by the composition but i somehow managed to write something down. Well, im not sure if what i wrote was valid but at least i did penned down stuff. and the first comprehension was zhe li hen an jing. bloody hell it was the toughest chapter of all 10. i must say we were really unfortunate.

OP presentation

We're having the dry run III now. and marcus is presenting haha. ahh Mrs Toh commented that I spoke too fast. Friday's the day. Goodluck.

2009-10-29T20:18:00.000-07:00

Promos was alright, however not as satisfying as i thought it should be after doing the papers. especially for econs. I half expected myself to get at least a C, preferably a B for it as i studied for market structure and market failure. However things did not go as planned. I got an E, which was rather disappointing. It felt worse than bio which i already expected myself to fail and instead i got an S. I merely passed my bio but yet i was alright with it. Maybe because people around me were getting similar grades hence i wasnt too afraid of it. Econs however, was really a shock and i doubt im able to keep my 4H2s next year already. So its either bio or econs if i have to drop. I would choose to keep econs for i want to do econs-related stuff and nothing about science in uni. Its so ironic that im in the science stream yet i have no interest in doing science related modules in uni. However if im dropping bio, i might have to change classes. and thats something i really dont want to do. T26 has been an especially lovely and accomodating class with people who dont judge and treat everyone else for who they are (unless they do stuffs to piss the majority off). I must say 2009 has been one of the happiest year of my life and i do treasure the times spent with all my friends. Not only have i forged many awesome friendships with new friends in JC, i have also established better relationships with my secondary school mates which is something i have longed for. I am very contented with what i have now. Although JC1 has been an extremely busy year where we spend most of our time studying, it actually feels great at the end of the day where you feel so accomplished. Especially during the pre-promos period. Ive attended every night study session before promos and i must say i feel so great everytime i leave the library. Regardless of whether i have really absorbed whatever i need to from my notes, it is comforting to just know i have tried my best. Night study was awesome for we had breaks from 8.45 to 9pm, where the Parent Support Group (PSC) peeps would prepare lots of snacks from curry puffs to pastas for us to enjoy during our break. Did i mention that the ice cream biscuits were given too? haha. We secretly brought it into the library after the break to keep ourselves awake! enjoyable moments. I can never forget how i chiong-ed to the library after school ended (about 2 pm) and studied till 6 before the library closes. During the break from 6-7, we would shower and take our dinner. 7pm, the library opens again. 10pm, the bell rings. Mom and Dad would pick me up for most of the days and im really grateful for that. I cannot imagine the almost-dead-from-studying me waiting for 966 which takes forever to arrive and reach home at 11 plus. So thank you mommy and daddy. I hope you were pleased with the results and thank you for all the tuition. haha. You've spent so much on me (>$1000) every month on tuition, piano lessons and my allowances. Next year will be worse but fear not for A's is coming and all misery will end. haha.

Talking about T26, we were so awesome we won the best contribution award. "From more than half of the class holding key positions in school to YOG ambassadors...and blood donations...". yes thats T26 for you. We have done so much as a class especially during our teachers' day performance! It is so memorable for me i'll never forget it. Although we did not win the best home class award, which we believe is largely due to our academic results haha, we can try again next year! Nonetheless, we all enjoyed the chocolates, wafers, yanyan, sparkling grape juice etc from the hamper right. haha. Speaking of the hamper, yesterday was our JC1 end-of-year ceremony. It was also Bro Paul's final speech for us. It lasted for more than an hour, yet all of us were so attentive to what he was saying. Although i dont know him well, im sure the video montage was sufficient to let everyone acknowledge what he has done for CJC. "I will see you all through" was what he said to his last batch of students, us. Somehow i felt safe at that moment. I cant describe it. His address that morning was both touching and humorous. All the golden-toilet awards, scientists-of-tmr thingy, and many more. haha. and how could we forget the wig! oh my the whole ceremony was so interesting and meaningful. It felt a little like graduation. When they presented Bro Paul with the stars that every JC1 student has folded for him in a large jar, the moment was really touching i felt. Stephanie mentioned that the number of stars (2920 i think) represented the number of days that Bro Paul has been in CJC. The student council is really thoughtful. Well, lets just hope that Bro Paul will be well in his future endeavours in Melbourne. and lets all pray that Mrs Kong (former principal of STC) will be nice to us hehe. oh btw, it was also major camwhoring session that day haha! (:

On a lighter note, promos have finally ended with all our results released. It feels relieved. I have so much more free time now at home. No more mugging. Except that i have to mug for just two more days for Monday the 2nd of nov is our A levels MT examination. ooo. I want an A. nothing less than an A. but im not confident for it. I pray that my efforts will pay off. The official examination date for our Oral Presentation for my group is next friday. I havent actually have my script solidly-memorised, but i dont think its advisable to do that right. haha i supposed we're supposed to be natural and all. oh well, i have to practice in front of my mirror soon. haha. May the dumplings bring us goodluck! :)

Another important date would be the 13 nov where we would be getting our official promotional results in the PAC.

alright im starving like crazy i havent had my lunch yet and im now in the school library blogging. haha.

things i need to blog about the next time i come here (just in case i forget heh)
- Amara hotel
- outing with dancers
- A levels MT examination
- OP presentation

2009-09-06T01:46:00.000-07:00

13th July 2009
Edwin's first day in BMT.

14th July 2009
Mark wong's 17th (: made a slide show for him.

15th July 2009
A levels MT oral examination. visited ahma at the hospital. Visited the doctor, got a jab.

16th July 2009
Rasche's 17th. Left school halfway, wasnt feeling well.

17th July 2009
Rasche's bday dinner at Holland V cafe.

18th July 2009
Caught Harry potter and the half blood prince at 11.15 pm with Felina Felicia and Eddie. hmm, not a very enjoyable movie.

21th July 2009
35th Council's Installation ceremony. went to coronation plaza to get flowers for our lovely councillors. Awesome mango cake + potato salad at starbucks before heading to St Ignatius church. Left the place at 9 plus and fell flat when i got home.

22nd July 2009
7 of us were chosen to go for Exco interview for dance. Didnt make it through :(

23rd July 2009
Sch ended at one. Had A levels listening compre. waited for 30 mins before the start of the comprehension and i actually fell asleep haha. It was embarassing having others to wake me up :/

24th July 2009
Exco results out. President - Amanda Chia, VP - rachael, secretary - Jonathan, treasurer - Francesca. had interclass bball match with huilak, marcus, oriana, wanyi, mark and boon shiun. Won one and lost one. The girls from other teams were super violent :/ It was still rather enjoyable though (:

25th July 2009
Parents Teachers meeting (PTM). went at 8am with papamama. Talked for like less than 5 mins and went off -.-

27th July 2009
had Ba chor mee for lunch in school. Was supposed to run during PE but it rained so we went into the gym instead. Stayed in school while waiting for daddy and spent it with huigeok, jingkuang, huilak and shiyong.

29th July 2009
RUGBY!! :D haha it was a crazy session. So team sexy (our team) was one of the 3 losers (cus huilak's team won tsk). and Mr Ha made the 3 loser teams kneel down on the track to kiss it. hahaha. interesting.

30th July 2009
severe backpain i felt so crippled hahahahaha!

31th July 2009
Did some formation for dance in preparation for Teacher's Day performance. Was partners with Jonathan (:

2nd August 2009
Got my bloody period tsk.

3rd August 2009
Final EOM submission haha. Had Econs CA1 on monopoly. screwed it up. Sat in the canteen with huilak, Jonathan (j2) and marcus. Then i found Benny (a fly) in my ba chor mee. eew.

4th August 2009
Lunch-ed with PL in the canteen after school and Taahira came to talk to us (:

5th August 2009
Chem CA: entropy and chemical equilibrium

7th August 2009
NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION IN SCHOOL! hahaha. went to school to blow balloons. Our class got the white ones. Went down to tie the balloons onto the netting with June. haha we had an awesome time (: Chem spa after the whole celebration. How disgusting. It was supposed to be a test but after mrs toh left we all discussed like crazy. hahahaha. Took ALOT of pictures with the balloon-flag and we went to the canteen to discuss the lyrics for our class's performance on teacher's day. I vaguely rmb huigeok chasing joel thio hahahahaha. Lingered in school for damn long before we left to town. In the end, June, Janice Oriana, Wanyi and I went to Bishan J8 to watch "UP". It is undeniably the best cartoon i have watched. Touching scenes, funny dialogues, cute characters, etc. the movie has it all. 5 stars definitely! (:

8th August 2009
had no chem tuition hehe. Went to lot 1 to have lunch with edwin and mom. Left for Piano at 1.30 while mom waited for me at lot 1 for an hour before going home tgt (:

9th August 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! haha. went to the hotel gugu booked. i think its marina mandarin. Just beside suntec. I had a great view on the fireworks from the balcony. It was so majestic. Magnificent display by the jets/planes (idk what you call it) too just that it was too short. what a pity.

14th August 2009
Coucillors came to watch our dance. All we did was formation so it was damn slack.

15th August 2009
Went to the hostel in the morning to do our WR. Lunch at toa payoh with the councillors and Wan Yi. Yummy Hokkien mee (: Camwhored & i bought clothings for my ipod. haha he looks awesomely hot now! :D Went straight for tuition.

18th August 2009
Teacher's day rehearsal. Had BIO spa too. it was super screwed i cannot describe it. hahaha. But its over alr. " I wanna bang your head against the wall and squeezeeeeeeeeee you" HAHAHA.

19th August 2009
YOG interview.

20th August 2009
Econs case study test. tsk i failed.

21th August 2009
Dance session was very boring as it was a cleaning up session. Despite it being such a hated process, we had to do it if we want a coordinated performance. Went to vanessa's house with rachael after that. Facebook-ed and Webcam-ed with Huilak and Reko on the other side. hahaha.

24th August 2009
Had our chem spa. it was alright. hahaha. way much better compared to Bio spa.

25th August 2009
BIO test. ahh wdv.

26th August 2009
AHH teacher's day celebration!! :DD went to school at 6.55am and reported at the dance studio. haha. Had the butterflies in my tummy while i was on the bus la. haha. Went to LT2 for a briefing. Went back up to change, put on our make up, rehearse bla bla. Councillors then came to call us down. we were the first item of the concert. haha i can still rmb how insanely nervous i was (or everybody was also haha) backstage! We could hear the murmurings of the school and the emcees speaking. My heart just kept pumping crazily. Then the curtains opened. We walked out and positioned ourselves. The music started. THEN THE MUSIC WAS SO SOFT!! as i was one of the two side groups who were standing infront, we couldnt see that the center back group stop dancing alr. haha. then when i turned to find jonathan (partner part), there was almost nobody on stage alr. hahha omg i freaked out and ran backstage! Then i was told that there was technical errors and we had to do again. we were all so embarassed ttm we didnt dare to go out la. hahaha. the crowd was laughing their asses off! So we went out for the second time. and this time, it was perfect. the music was loud enough, our dance was coordinated and oh man i enjoyed myself like crazy. hahaha. i love dancing on the stage (: I still felt so embarassed during the robotic part even though i had expected laughters from the crowd. haha. After the performance we took group pictures outside the auditorium. Met up with T26 to get ready for our class song :D our class's performance was awesome too as the crowd laughed at our slideshow. haha we achieved what we wanted (: awesome job by my class. T26 is indeed loveeee! (: went back up to the dance studio and video-ed nobody but you. hahaha funny. Went to far east plaza to eat with dancers and we had Wanton noodle. It tasted quite good i'll go again the next time (:

27th August 2009
Marcus Heng's 17th (:

29th August 2009
Felina's 13th (: Went to plaza with gugu and family. Half of plaza blacked out when we went in haha. Ate at jack' place and oh god the baked cod fish was excellent! someone anyone please give me a treat cus its rather ex.... haha.

30th August 2009
The ONG family went for the all-time fav - Bak Koot Teh at Joochiat rd again after so long. The soup was so savoury edwin drank so much. haha i was so full yet so happy. hahahha.

31st August 2009
Clara's 17th (:

1st September 2009
Edmund's 17th (: Had an outing with aes mates at vivo city. the weather was disgustingly cold though. ate at thai express and it was the usual seafood fried kuay teow. haha. It was enjoyable mainly becus i got to meet up with aes peeps whom i've not seen in a long time. esp michaela! omgosh my cousin yet i have not seen her for so long. hahaha.

2nd September 2009
Got my E71 hehehehe :D Went to the hostel to make rice dumplings after sch ended. haha my rice dumplings were of weird shapes, unlike the tetrahedral ones that Wanyi boon shiun and randy made. hahahaha.

4th September 2009
Econs lec test on negative externality. Was alright. I really hope i can pass. haha i dont wanna fail anymore. sch ended early at 12 and we went for the ARMY open house at 1 plus. other than the heat, the trip was fun. haha. The tanks were cooooool! June and i got into a Leopard Tank and she was the ______ (i forgot) while i was the commando HAHAHA. Oh and how can i forget, we camwhored like crazy. CRAZY I MEAN IT. hahaha. even mrs toh joined us in some of the pictures HAHAHA! The bus ride was damn damn long due to the jam and after a while of camwhoring in the bus, i couldnt take it and slept. haha. Luckily i sat alone so i had the entire bench to myself (: Reached sch at 6 plus. Met up with rachael jayne jonathan and lawrence in the canteen. We went to Lido for dinner. haha macs! :D Daddy came at about 8 plus and home sweet home.

5th September 2009
woke up and did my tuition hw. Lunch at greenridge with mom. Left for tuition at 2.30, reaching the place only at 4. It ended at 6 and daddy came to pick me up. Eddie picked mom and edwin up and we all met up at Jiujiu's house for a family gathering (Some seventh month thingy). haha then i met michaela again. lol.

6th September 2009
postponed my tuition cus i was lazy and i wanted to go breakfast with my family hahaha. We went to henderson as usual, for the porridge. It was a rare opportunity for the 5 of us to go there to eat as the last time we went as a full family was a long long time ago.. Then haha we stopped at great world city. JUST TO SHIT! like the four of us had to shit. hahahahaha how hilarious. Only edwin was fine. anw, we drove to beach road to get edd's boots. Home and here i am. Eddie just left for his fieldcamp. i should be studying. but somehow i just cant find the drive to study like i did for O's anymore. I really dont want to retain. I MUST pass GP. and i want an A for math. at least a B for chem which is rather impossible haha. ahhh whats the point of aiming when im not even starting on my revision. How Meaningless.

2009-07-03T10:30:00.000-07:00

26th June 09
haha was supposed to mug in a hardcore way for MYEs but i went to aes to meet clara ed pl zh omg zh he's finally back. hahaha. & he has finally collected his testimonial/cert. England must have been great cus he's all fluent in english now. hahahaha. 15 past 2. funny. Left for railmall before heading to town. They had awesome sushi buffet while i went to meet mom and headed home to mug -.-. damned MYEs. haha. cant wait for him to be back again (:
oh and edd went for diving at tioman! hahaha lucky guy.

27/28th June 09
preparation for MYEs.

29th June 09
ECONS. well, I did the questions on elasticities and PPC. was contemplating between elasticity and firms. but out of the 4 essays i could only say i was confident i could pass 2.

30th June 09
BIOLOGY. Its obvious that i got slaughtered. how the hell will i know why tadpoles have some weird increasing ____(smth) concentration as their tail disappears -.- wth. but after bio, it felt as if my body was lighter but a few kgs. haha. really. I was really extremely relieved.

1st July 09
Mathematics. seventeen marks blank. the partial fractions + sigma notation question really got me infuriated. I was so disturbed that i could not cancel when i was doing MOD just becus i did not arrange them properly. and that was a price of 5 marks to pay for.

2nd July 09
Chem. I am so afraid of disappointing my tuition teacher. I personally aim for a B but i know im not gonna get it now. Made stupid careless mistakes which are rather fatal. I just pray that i dont fail. Hopefully a C.

3rd July 09
Chinese. hahha omg chinese was quite tough. My essay was really shitty. and for the comprehension, i literally copy and paste the entire paragraph. Idk wth the story was about. Listening compre was fun. lol.
Went over to plaza to get some junk food before making my way to Felina's house. Watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua. omg funny! hahaha. i like it. The character chloe really amuses me. Hilarious dog which is so pampered and bimbotic. lol.

A few days back, i witnessed a scene that was so thought-provoking. I was walking to greenridge when i saw this small-built woman, grabbing a tall, huge, 15/16 yr old boy, who appeared to be autistic, tightly by the shirt. The boy walked past a railing which had an empty sweettalk cup and immediately ran over to snatch it, then biting the straw profusely. His mom hitted him by the back but it was as if he felt nothing. Then as we were reaching greenridge, they walked past this two ladies (i think they're maids), one pushing a pram, one holding the hand of a girl no older than 5 years old. The little girl was munching on what seemed like pocky. Just then, the boy started to walk closer and closer towards this little girl and out of a sudden, he grabbed the pack of biscuits away from the girl with some struggle. He immediately tore open the rest of the wrapper and stuff the biscuits into his mouth. Bits and pieces of the snack flew in all directions while he only managed to salvage some by cupping both his hands tgt. The little girl burst into tears while the boy's mom whacked him though he had no reaction. The frail looking woman looked as if she was about to cry too. At that moment, I felt so lucky and fortunate to be.. normal. I really pity both the boy and his mom. Its not easy for his mom to bring her mentally challenged child up and take him out. On the other hand, its very unfortunate for the boy too. This incident made me think alot. More importantly, it made me reflect on how i used to complain so much about my so called stressful jc life which was in fact nothing compared to the pains of that mom. It's hard to describe how i feel but maybe its time i start treasuring and appreciating everything i have, everything i am.

2009-06-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

haha wow its been a long while since my last post.

4th June, thursday
went to Felina's place for breakfast. My house is really pathetic haha we have only maggie for breakfast. Went to her house for prata before haha wee left to Copyprinter to help mom out. haha i miss the old times where the four of us, eugene felina felicia and i would help out during the Proteach season.

6th June, Saturday
Chem tuition from 9 to 11. Went to meet Aunt Alice, felina felicia, God mama, 2 more aunties, Cousin Diane with her 2 kids. We went for high tea at Zhou's Kitchen at JP2. I think it was my first time going for 'high tea'. lol.

7th June, Sunday
haha i wont blog about this. but it was definitely an awesome day celebrating Oriana's birthday (:

13th June, Sunday
Chem tuition again. East Coast Park for chalet in the afternoon with the same group of people who went for the high tea. haha. They booked 4 rooms la omg. rich people. Cycled, ate, played cards, walked around. haha. oh and the highlights: After we all bathed, Uncle suggested playing mahjiong. He was short of one khakee(spl?). So felina and i played together. Well, we were against 3 other uncles who were the all-time supporters of mahjiong .hahaha. imagine the fate that was gonna befall us man! BUT in the end, after hours, (i couldnt tahan and i went to sleep first. haha) we won a little! Felina told me in the morn that we won 5 bucks. haha not bad eh! (: Second day, my family came down too. Cycled with mom and my maid, Suzanna. The three of us then went to sit on some rock and enjoyed the breeze. what a relaxing moment which i'll never forget. Went to bedok 80-smth for dinner before chiong-ing home for my ahma's fav show, ai. LOL. haha and eddie's friends were at home playing mahjiong -.-

17th June, wednesday
Piano lesson.

20th June, saturday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANDY! :DD

21st June, sunday
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY TO MY DADDY! hehe. we headed to Sembawang for golf and swimming. I really suck at playing golf. Unlike both my brothers and my dad who are really good at it. The men in the family. hahaha.

23rd June, tuesday
my bloody period came like some tsunami. tsk.

24th June, wednesday
Piano lesson again. but ms Caroline came over instead. haha

25th June, thursday
Went to school to study with Janice, June and Aik Seng. there were others like zack, jeremy. I didnt really know them. haha. they were fun though! (: Dad picked me up to RC. Home, the ultimatum, here i am.

THIS POST IS BLOODY BORING. becus i cant rmb things i've done. i can only rely on my organiser which writes almost nth during the hols. but its okay, its for my own viewing anyway. i just want to record everything i've done so i can look back in future. haha i like it this way :)

2009-06-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

Grandma's dinner was rather bad. I'm talking about the food. But nonetheless, it was a great meet up with my cousins. haha. They're all so busy these days! Eugene has O's this year. Felicia is forever busy since pri school (idk why -.-). Felina is obsessed with Basketball. Dominic and Alex drifted away since we all stepped into sec sch. Speaking of eugene, His O's for chinese was on the monday after we had the dinner (sat). and on sat night he suggested to watch a midnight movie. omg he's such a crazy guy. I rmbed reading all my zuo wens extensively the sunday before my paper la. haha. oh oh and i found out. my grandma is 89 this year on the chinese calender which means 88 on the english one. OMG i didnt realise she was of such a huge numerical age. lol. highlights: during the usual family photo taking where each child of my grandma will take a photo with her with their entire expanded family, my family did crazy stuffs. haha. just look at how retarded we are. Im sure everyone was astonished by my family's retardedness. hahaha. how hilarious! :)

Sunday, 31st may.
Went to scc to play golf with my family except eddie who had duty :( haha edwin was good. I was merely a joke at the range. hahaha. on many occasions, i swung the club and turned my head to see where my golf ball had landed. But to my surprise, i could not see anything flying. Then i turned my head back and i realise that i did not hit the ball at all. HAHA omg. i swore there was this idiotic uncle who giggled. chicken nn. anw im just very bad at golf, unlike the rest of my family. haha. Headed to Jurong Point to meet stevan and joel (who left when i reached wth) to get June's balloon! haha.

Monday, 1st june.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNE KOH rong rong! :DD hahahaha. you are now officially 17, congrats! Went to school at 9.30am to meet my PW group to discuss some GPP matters at the hostel. Left for Math lecture at 10 and it ended at 12. Chiong-ed to cityhall for THAI EXPRESS with about 15 other classmates! :D I love their seafood kuay teow and ice blended watermelon. awesome stuff. reached home at 4 plus. Bathed, changed and left again for clarke quay. haha we had a fun time camwhoring but it was definitely a pity oriana couldnt make it :(. boo. Had our dinner by the river and played with lightsticks! hahaha. Furthermore, we sang aloud like nobody's business. haha. Reached home at almost midnight. Chiong-ed to the toilet to bathe and dropped dead on my bed.

Tuesday, 2nd june.
Went to school AGAIN for lessons. First up was chem lecture which i thought wasnt really helpful at all. oh well. 2 hours of that before we left for the canteen to have our breakfast. Oh man im gna miss the teppanyaki (spl?) fish set big time la. Math and bio from 11.30am onwards. Reached home just in time to catch double episodes of totally spies (I LOVE CLOVER, SAM AND ALEX :DD) LOL, on disney channel. surfed the net, dinner with edwin at greenridge, tv, sleep.

Wednesday, 3rd june.
Woke up at 9.30am. Practised the piano and did my theory hw which i left untouched for a very long time (i think my teacher should really hate me but she doesnt cus she's very nice) haha. left for class at 12 and bumped into June and Taahira at cck's mrt station. haha what a coincidence. Walked around lot1 to returned my library book as well as to kill time and in the end i bought a necklace and a ring. girls -.- hahaha. Went to meet up with mom at cck's polyclinic. i cabbed there from lot1. okay laugh all you want. The uncle stared at me when i said, "Uncle, cck poly clinic please." haha it was only 3 bucks cus i could actually walk there. BUT I DIDNT KNOW it was so near so im excused :) Went home while mom went to do her hair. Edwin came home from work. Eddie picked the both of us up and we went to look for mom for dinner. bla bla.

2009-05-29T20:12:00.001-07:00

sometimes i hate myself for being unable to be entertaining. Why didnt god give me any 'funny' genes so i dont bore people? I feel lousy whenever i see others who are able to keep others wanting to talk to them. Interesting people whom everyone wants to be friends with. Its time i reflect on my boring character. "Change is good". Is that necessarily true ? (GP mye). yes, i need to change. but the point is, idk how to :(

on a lighter note, I must say L4D is so interesting! haha! Met up with T26 at the cathay. we played for 3 hours and I was quite shagged alr (my neck started to ache -.-). We fought against T13 boys and a half (oo im such a meanie). there was this round where we thrashed them badly within 5 mins. hahaha. so they just stepped out the safe place (idk what you call it). and boomer went first, turning all of them purple while i (hunter) and my other mates attacked at the same time. hahaha omg it was hell hilarious and fun. It was a nice game overall. Then we played a lil of counter-strike. left at 4 plus to ps for sakae. Met up with Joel Ow that ass for a while before heading home.

Grandma's 87th/88th/89th birthday today. Dinner at some country club at cck. ooo the battle begins. hahaha. hokay gtg to meet mama for lunch! :)

p.s
I really wanna meet up with people like katherine, brenda, clara, michaela, and actually everyone in 4/1 soon :(

2009-05-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

It's time i update this disgustingly dead blog.

11th MAY 09
No school (vesak day hol). i forgot what i did.

14th MAY 09
Went to shop for wanyi's birthday balloon after school with June and Zhi hao at JP. We got her this huge smiley helium balloon and a rose. Before heading home, we allowed the pigs in us to escape as we indulge in awesome bread selling only at $1. Bla Bla i cant rmb.

15th MAY 09

Celebrated Wanyi's birthday in the canteen during break. hehe i hope you like all the stuffs we gave you and the special candles bought for a special person like you :) Thank you for being there for me and teaching me the right things to do. Its definitely awesome having you sitting beside me (though we're now separated boo), doing stupid stuffs together, and laughing our heads off while Ms Tan banged her head against the whiteboard HAHAHA! omg just when i thought i was the only lonely one who saw, i turned and you were laughing just as hard. hahaha in short, you're wonderful :)

Left halfway during break to find Mr Yeow for consultation. omg my understanding of bio was so bad i swore on many occasions, mr yeow gave me the omg-u-dont-know-this look. :( But he's very nice to explain i dont know to me in details. Mr Yeow is one teacher you definitely wanna have. His countless jokes and enthusiasm in class really inspires me to work harder. HOWEVER, he's no longer our bio teacher. He was just a stand in teacher from the start. omgzxz. There's this Mr Goh, HOD of the science department taking over him. I cant really understand his lessons and the way he conducts them makes me feel very uncomfortable. Idk how you explain it but perhaps i need more time to adapt to his style of teaching. Despite all these, i somehow feel safe in his arms in a sense that i believe he'll be able to help me achieve the grade i want.

After school, my parents picked me up and we went to see a doctor as my period was delayed for a 3 weeks when it has always been very 'punctual'. Fearing that it might be an infection or smth, we went to consult Dr Agnes. haha she's an ex-AES student who graduated and progressed on to HWA CHONG instituition and now she has her own clinic. omgzxzxz how can AES ever produce such elites. im very, very impressed. haha. so anyway, she deduced that i was probably too stressed up and due to my irregular meals and sleeps, hormones may be unstable thus resulting in a delay for my period. After a month of delay, my period finally came and this gave me and my mom a huge relief. haha we were afraid for infections or diseases la.

17 MAY 09
HAPPY 53rd BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D i love my daddy. haha. my ice cream mate. and one thing i rmbed so vividly on this day was that there wasn't piano lesson! haha cus my teacher went on an urgent overseas trip! hahaha man was i so looking forward to a Sunday without having to wake up at 8 :D Headed to town with my family to get my shoes as the converse ones were giving me blisters everytime i ran in them. got a pair of Tiger Onitsuka shoes :)

18th MAY 09
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY STEVAN! haha. Chem test was cancelled (i studied for it-.-). tsk.

19th MAY 09
haha headed to SJI for our 4 x 100m heats at 5 plus. omg and we came in 6th. HAHA yeah there were only 6 teams each heats. it sounds nicer to say that we came in 6th than to say that we came in last. ahah. eh but out of all the 20 classes that took part, we got 15th! haha. i must say its not bad considering that our team was a cha palang team comprising of june, oriana, J2 and me. hahaha. awesome job done by 1T26 for all the events! :D

20th MAY 09
There wasnt any lessons as it was think career day for the J2s and so J1s had to attend this excursion to this 6 SIR place thingy. It's an army camp. anw, the highlights were the food (of cus) , the camo cream and of the the rifles! awesome. We first had light snacks at the canteen. omg we kope like ALOT of cream puffs HAHA to the point our facilitator told us our next venue where there was food. haha! We then headed up to the hall where they gave us their army ration food to try. omg it was delicious! haha i even went home to ask my brother to bring some back LOL! Then we went to try out the rifles. Our class tried the SAR 21 and omg i didnt expect the whole rifle to shake when i shot the blanks so i screamed the first one -.- omg embarassing. Then we watched some live skit by the army on how they would react if there were any intruders. It was rather amusing at some parts but was interesting on the whole. Headed back to school at 12 plus and did GPP in the hostel with my group till about 2 plus. After that we left for the cathay to play Left 4 Dead. hahaha omg this game is fun! Just the tank part is rather scary. hahaha.

24 MAY 09
had piano in the morn from 8 - 9 am as usual. But tuition was cancelled when i got home cus i fell sick. Went to see the doctor and he always has to give me those ginormous antibiotics. Its so damn hard to swallow them. eew. It was the usual problems of sore throat and fever. I never seem to escape away from this two illness every month. boo.

27 MAY 09
woke up early int he morn (10am) to study for GP exam the day after. went to greenridge to get breakfast at 11.30 am and returned just in time to catch totally spies on disneychannel from 12 to 1. haha it was so relaxing and i really enjoyed the peace at home. Took an afternoon nap and headed to the pasar malam at night with Eddie and Edwin. omg i love such bonding times. haha! :) Tv-ed and studied a lil more before i went to bed even when i wasnt feeling tired. haha i totally have no self-discipline.

28 MAY 09
GP Mid Year Exams. I was so nervous throughout the morning before the paper started to the point i felt like shitting. Okay and i did after the 3 hour paper. haha! and did i mention that it felt great? omg im disgusting. hahahahahah. anw, GP, I have no confidence in it at all, and, i, just want a pass. 50/100 is fine with me. just a pass will do. Did some retarded NE test after the GP paper and omg i guessed most of the questions. Went to Novena to eat with Oriana and Janice (ljs) while the guys went to vivo. Then they called and ask us if we wanted to meet them for pool at Toa Payoh and we left. Janice went home to change and brought me clothes while i went to Oriana's house. Met up with the rest and we played pool till 7 plus. daddy came, bpp for dinner with edwin, home sweet home.

29 MAY 09 (TMR)
12pm at Cathay for L4D. hahaha. yay. oh and goodluck to all those taking H1 econs in 1T26 k! :D

2009-05-09T11:32:00.000-07:00

1. 'syf presents' on friday, 8th may.
haha it was awesome! :D lets see. We ended sch at 1pm. headed to the canteen with janice and yeeyin before going up to the studio at 2. changed, practiced bla bla until 5. Left for the audi extention for dinner! haha. Bro. Paul ordered buffet for us. Took a mega group picture with all the dancers including J2s. haha. Went back to the dance studio and waited till it was time to go to the pac. oo i was so nervous. haha. In the changing room, priscilla led us with a prayer and talked abt admin stuffs before it was time for our performance. I cannot express how i nervous i felt. hahaha. and it was amazing how memories of aes arts fest flooded my mind as i was in the changing room, waiting for time to pass by. While waiting at the backstage, memories of the hawaiian dance refreshed my mind again. haha. how awesome. While performing, i did not feel as nervous as before. idk why but it felt good. hahaha. didnt smile much though :( J1s headed back to the changing room and watched the J2s dance their syf piece through the plasma tv. omg they were so good and synchronised. it was fantastic. many a times all of us went like 'omg..' or 'wow...' while keeping our eyes fixed on the screen. haha. Welcomed them back into the changing room (lol), screams, hugs, tears, and then we all left for the dance studio again. Someone turned off the lights and everyone just went crazy like it was some club. hahaha. A while later, we were again called to the pac for the 'finale', where we just gather around the stage to sing the school song. && after the concert was over, my dear classmates gave me and janice roses! haha oh man i was surprised, considering the fact that i think its my first time receiving roses. hahaha. Went to serene center with janice, aikseng, mark, taahira and nat for macs as janice and i were starving. Edwin came to pick me up and i reached home at 12.30.

2. i barely passed my math CA and im freaking out. i cant believe if i were to get a C and below for math for A's. So much to do, yet so little time. how? :(

3. NO MORE PI! oh man! REJOICE! it was the final submission of our PIs on 8th may. haha how i love it! no more disgusting PI. at least one segment removed from project work. :D

4. Im so worried for my academics. I no longer have the determination to study as i did for my O's. As i reminise on how i actually enjoyed studying a lil (freaky) during the critical period for O's, im desperate that i cant get that feeling back again. All i wanna do now is play, relax, slack. Everything but study. i wanna go shopping, watch a movie, hang out. omg the last time i watched a movie was january. wtf. Im officially life-less. & my results are just.. demoralising.

5. Read my friend's blog and I felt rather enlightened. If he is working hard on what he wants to achieve, Im sure i can do the same. I think its only a question of whether i want to or not. Maybe i just need more distractions to divert my attention away from stupid and pointless issues. Crap.

6. its 3am now and idk why im not sleeping. I just finished Conics tutorial but i couldnt do all the questions :(

7. haha before i go, gold for NAPFA! hahaha yay yay yay!! :DD standing broad jump was definitely a miracle! :D

you need to scram.

2009-04-10T05:15:00.000-07:00

omg its been so long. lets see what i can recall.

1) got back our bio tests (mr yeow actually forgot about it haha). and I failed :( congrats to those who passed though :) anw, i gotta buck up on my bio man. I want at least a B.

2) after we ended at 4 instead of 5 ytd (cus of holy thursday, hehe love catholic schools), oriana janice wan yi and i went to slide! haha! omg it was uber fun. stole cardboards from this place idk where and we headed to the area behind the science blocks. There's this mini hill where we sat on the cardboards and skidded down. haha. just like kids. And i swear at that moment i dont feel like a seventeen year old at all (ok fine 16 -.-). It was simply awesome and relaxing. took many photos and videos and just practically had a whale of our time. haha.

3) walked to novena from sch after sliding down that mini hill for dinner. So it was oriana, janice, wanyi, amanda, huigeok, germaine, huilak and aikseng. Fish & co again! haha. shared a platter for 2, new york fish & chips, prawns fettucinni (spl?) and a chocolate cake with 4 others. yum yum.

4) During our pe on wednesday morn, we went to crawl this drain outside school. hahaha. to be more accurate, it was a drain underneath our sch. apparently its part of this outdoor activities module according to Mr Ha. It was a fun experience which i definitely enjoyed. we were supposed to go alone at the first part. but i went in a few steps and waited for Wanyi to walk with me HA. and then we caught up with janice oriana all who were waiting for us in the middle of the pitch dark drain too HAHA! so in the end we all came out of the drain tgt. lol.

5) i think we screwed our econs YOG project. boo :( Went to school early in the morn (7am!) to finish up our presentation. Had quite a bit of fun in the process of filming some videos whom apparently seem really lousy. Maybe it was not revelant. oh well.

6) 1st april: went back to aes after sch to meet up with the rest before heading down to victoria concert hall together with the school. AES dance ensemble was performing their SYF piece. I have no idea how i express in words the magnificant piece they put up. It was just awesome and i feel so proud to be once part of this dance ensemble. I pray that you guys get gold :)

7) 4th april: eric chow's annual birthday party. haha i enjoyed catching up with some friends and more importantly it was great seeing everyone again :) i sure hope for another outing soon. Before his party, we had a family dinner with my cousins at sakura. The highlight would probably be how annoyed i was when they did not refill the empty trays of brownies. I was really pissed and disappointed. tsk.

2009-03-14T20:53:00.000-07:00

1. mass pe is officially over for at least the next few months! haha rejoice! :D Anw i was so lucky to have passed the timing of 12 mins for 2 rounds outside sch. haha i came in at like 11.5 mins. how lucky. cant run for nuts.

2. Its 4 weeks without dance. fook.

3. Went to suntec to look for marcus, james, edmund, yishu, eric han and eugene after mass pe with pl on thurs. Thai Express for dinner and man i love the seafood kuay teow! haha. the watermelon ice blended was bloody good too. Lepak-ed around and 171-ed home with marc and pl.

4. CAs are over & i didnt do too well.. boo. I was most disappointed with my chinese results. Barely manage to pass my math and idk abt the rest yet. But for sure, chem's gone. GP, might to be able to pass. haha and im so not looking forward for Bio's CA this tues when sch starts.

5. was supposed to go out with katherine yesterday for our shopping trip but unfortunately something cropped up so we couldnt make it. :( oh well, another time then.. So i was not prepared to stay at home for a saturday so i decided to join the class dinner at novena at 6 plus. But before that i managed to get June to acc me to marina to scan ard for clothes. haha. Didnt see much though. double boo. Cityhall mrt was so packed it was literally a human jam. how scary. So anw we trained down to novena and had dinner at fish & co. haha and dear oriana was on shift today. oh man i miss working at fish & co. the constant reminders from bobby about the sauce sets, ice water all. hahaha. funny. We made a hell lot of noise after we ate. Played 8-person-ji goh pak (spl?). haha. then the sistas and brothas thingy came up. haha. and coincidentally, all of us girls were wearing hoodies. haha. we sat at fish & co for damn freaking long before we left for home and others for tp to lepak even longer cus they freaking live in the east. tsk. haha so us westies (june and i) headed home.

6. On friday, where everyone had cca (tsk), i left sch at 2 plus (wow) and headed to lot 1 to meet Felina. haha had yong tau foo and omg the sauce was good i was almost drinking it. LOL ok not to that extent. we got bored and we didnt wna go home so we went to jurong point to shop and i got a top and a bag. hehe. Sat at starbucks and ate this bananarama muffin. It was so awesome i ate all the crumbs too. then dad came to pick us up and home sweet home.

7. Its sunday today and i have no plans. how sad. Feel like dipping into the waters. So long since i last went to scc.

8. Liverpool 4-1 Man united. haha. Edwin excitedly msg-ed me to tell me abt the score from china! haha. I bet he was partying like crazy yesterday la. goody gerrard :)

2009-03-07T03:22:00.000-08:00

wow tests are all coming up next week when i've only started school for about 1 and a half months. -.- Flunked my bio online test. haha it was crazy. Guessed most of it :/

1. Dance is officially the slackest cca cus we only have practice once a week! my god. :( Fridays are reserved for the J2s for their syf and we only have wednesdays. boo hoo. how i wish we can have it more frequently. So last friday, when everyone had their ccas, Janice, Wanyi, Oriana and i wasted our lives at the grand stand. haha. During our last break, we played this tap tap game on huilak's iphone. haha so addictive la. and when on the way down from the classroom, idk why but we just started singing the song 'fall for you' aloud like nobody's business. haha evelina my singing friend :) We left for the grand stand after school (sch ended early btw cus of the release of A level results) to finish our chem SPA. Played around with stickers like small kids -.- haha. Then Wanyi left for her training. Wasted even more time until Oriana left home. Janice and I didnt want to go home cus it was a bloody friday so we just sat at the grandstand, waiting for time to pass. But luckily, there was a soccer and handball match to keep us entertained. cj vs NUS high. haha cj won eh! :) 8/9 -1 i cant rmb. hahahaha. there were some funny lame jokes too.

2. I have been sleeping so early everyday at like 10 plus. I dont do anything when i reach home except bathing. Sometimes i dont even eat dinner cus i just fall dead on my bed. Its ironic now that im having lesser subjects than sec sch, im actually feeling more drained. Probably not used to the life yet.

3. idk what else to say. hahaha. I cant rmb what i did and what i wanted to blog about. Lets talk abt random stuffs then. Im finally going to meet katherine after so long! haha. idk when yet but soon i guess :) My phone is so screwed it never fails to shut down on me everytime. I have to turn on the phone for more than 5 times a day -.- I love my camera. I dont love you like i did yesterday. Tonight will be the night that i will fall for you. hahaha wth idk what im saying. just so addicted to the song 'fall for you'.

4. Cant wait for march hols! :D

5. move out of my life you woman you. ( haha huilak's phrase! )

2009-03-01T02:38:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY, 27th feb.

ROCKAFELLA! :D haha. i had an awesome time and i swear the last band was fantastic. what a cute name la (fried rice paradise). Before fried rice was this band, and their lead singer had no eyebrows! it was rather scary. haha. & of cus the winners of last year's rockafella were so good everyone stood up. anw, rockafella was great! Headed to serene centre for dinner after that and we met brenda and sche! haha. I enjoyed myself so much while catching up with dear brenda and sche's jokes are always that funny. ahah.

SATURDAY, 28th feb.

Woke up at an amazing time of 10.30am. Chiong-ed a bit of hw until about 5 before i left for vivo to celebrate mic's birthday. haha so there were edmund, yishu, james, bernard, annabelle, qinwei, peilin, kenny, jie xin, michaela, clara, marcus heng, timothy, rainier, eric han and me. Had dinner at this Japanese restaurant and halfway, 3 of us left to get the cake for her. haha it was fun la. & the cake was good. Loved the spongy layer. Then we slacked around like always (4/1's speciality). haha. anw it was just very awesome to meet 4/1 again after so long :) Took my mind off some stuffs too. but a pity so many couldnt make it. boo! i cant wait for March's outing now. haha.

SUNDAY, 1st march.
Woke up with a bloody fever. tmd. Doctor gave me a jab on my ___ la :( Slept again and fortunately i feel more like a human now. Dont know if im going to sch tmr. but i'll definitely skip mass pe if im gng tmr. haha. & parents dont allow me to go for cross country now :( i rather run competitive than miss out on the whole event la. boo. time for dinner.

2009-02-20T18:43:00.000-08:00

phew. It's finally time again to update my dead blog. We've started the journey for A levels and i swear the beginning is just as tough as O levels. For the first week of lessons, it was super slack cus we did not have the full time table yet. We ended at like 1 2 3 plus. and man that is EARLY. As for the second week, We ended at 3 4 5 plus. It's worst when we only have one break in between.

1. I hate lectures. I personally do not like lectures cus why? i cant catch up with the speed. yes im stupid. Especially bio. Mr Bala can go on for one whole hour and i can just be looking at the watch for the whole hour too, hoping the lecture will end asap. I dont get anything he says in lecture. Stupid me. In Bio tutorial, Mr Yeow goes slightly slower but I still dont understand much. At most 30 - 40 %. how pathetic. But Mr Yeow is great is engaging us all in his lesson. Thats really good. Because during chem, all of us always feel so sleepy. Chem lectures are a torture too. I need to bring more sweets. Lol.

2. Lessons till 5 that day cus of Chem SPA. and we did titration! haha its been so long. It was a fun and entertaining (jokes from friends haha) session. but i must say that aes's science labs are much better than cj's one. :X and that whole block of science labs always make me feel so distant from the school. Like some isolated building. lol. ok ignore.

3. Bought the Graphic Calculator. $185 is such a bomb. I love math tutorial. And Oriana is so smart i cant help but turn to her everytime i have questions. haha.

4. Stayed back in sch on friday to help decorate our notice boards. haha. They bought spray paints, coloured paper, coloured sticks and more. Spraying the board was fun! Our outline is more or less done so we are only left with the main design: the sperms and the egg. hahaha. I shall upload a pic when it's done. Went to the library with Janice after that cus we do not have cca. btw im in dance! :D Studied and when the library got so bloody cold we left for the canteen! haha the best place ever in school. Chatted with friends all the way till mom and dad came to pick me up at 7 plus. haha. i really know how to waste time.

5. Dad got me a new camera. hehe. we bought it at such a right time cus there was an offer for it. So yup, camwhore-ed in school like nobody's business. haha.

6. I talked to Zhi Hao on facebook! omg haha its been so long! He's coming back in April and i sure hope to meet up with him! haha.

7. We have to run 6 rounds around the track next wed before cca. How exciting. I CANT RUN FOR NUTS LA. and then i'll be the only loser lagging behind. shit. Good luck, candice.

8. I cant wait for Edwin's return from china! About one more month plus before he comes back. boo i miss my brother.

9. Eddie comes home more frequently now since he's on a bike course. haha and that day he picked me up from sch! saves me the journey home on 966 which takes FOREVER to come. i swear. At night, we'll be playing texas poker on facebook. hahaha. I tell you he's just so freaking lucky although he's such a risk taker. I hope the real session comes again soon. (Eddie's friends).

10. I miss aes friends :(

2009-02-08T03:35:00.001-08:00

Im finally blogging! yay. anw, orientation in cjc is UBER FUN i tell you. I really had an absolutely fantastic time and not to forget, i made so many new friends :D hehe. so i'll try to blog everything out so i can read it back next time (: DAY 1 - 2nd FEB. Met up with Kenny, Jx, PL, ervin and annabelle at the bus stop and we went up to the auditorium to gather in our IGs. JX, Me, Annabelle, Kenny and PL are in IGs 14,15,16,17,18 respectively. My facilitators were Samuel and Tessa. We were brought this open space (idk the name) and we had our ice breakers. Played games like double whacko, i never, and we introduced ourselves. So at that time, i still felt so foreign and i didnt know anyone. haha. I can never forget that kind of feeling la. Then after our games, we had lunch in the canteen. The canteen has a wide range of food! Noodle king, Jap food, Western food, etc. I only drank my fruit tree mango juice. haha. Then we gathered back in the audi and went to play more bonding games like bomberman and stuffs. End of Day 1.

DAY 2 - 3rd FEB. Again we gather at the audi. Then we were dismissed for our games. We played twister at the open space near the field (i think cjc has ALOT of open spaces). They put paper plates on the mat with lots of dyes and flour. Lucky for me, they asked me to put my elbow on green. haha others had to put their chin or butt la! haha. In the process, the facils also splashed dyed water on us. so our clothes, limbs and hair were already stained. haha. Then we moved on to play this chair game. they lined up many chairs in a straight row. Then on the chairs were of cus, paint again. so we had to form a line and our opponents were from other IGs. from 2 ends, we had to send one out at a time to scissors paper stone with the other party. But they had to sit on each chair to reach each other. If they lost, they have go back and send another person while the winner has time to charge forward. hahaha. so our butts were coloured. Then we moved on to the quadrangle where we played dodgeball using circular sponge balls. It wasnt very fun though. But i got damn wet cus my facil splashed water on me directly. hahaha. Then we wash up and end of Day 2.

DAY 3 - 4th FEB. Half of the whole cohort went dragon boating while the other half stayed in school for more games. haha. We had the telematch in school. haha their telematch is uber uber fun la. First we had to have two sponge balls wet at our armpit and our thighs (yes we have to kiap them). Then either we walk or hop, we have to reach the bucket and squeeze the water out without using our hands. Then we had to form one line like a caterpillar on the ground with our legs infront of the person. idk how to describe the position. We have to move across a distance and then roll over the field over another distance. Then the last station was where we had to army crawl over to the 'flags'. eh idk what to call it. Hui Lak said they are called plaque-cards. spin 10 rounds around it then run to the plate in front where it has alot of flour and soya beans. We had to use only our mouths to pick up a soya bean and run back, do 5 jumping jacks before dashing back to the finishing line. Thankfully, i only had flour on my nose. haha. Next we had to go up one by one the grand stand to eat the watermelon tessa was holding. haha. So i was one of the first few to go up cus i wanted to eat the watermelon. I pity the last one man. haha. he had to endure all our saliva. and btw that person was samuel. haha. Climbing up the grand stand was tiring. and the seniors said something about the GST, grand stand torture. i hope pe's not that bad. btw they mentioned that we have mass PEs too. cool. Then the dragon boat people came back and we had the cca orientation.

DAY 4 - 5th FEB. we went dragon boating early in the morning! haha it was fun but tiring. 1 up! 2 up! haha! Then we had games along kallang. First up was this spaghetti game where we had to pair up with the opposite sex. Then they give each of us (pair) a spaghetti. So fragile. Then we had to put one end in our mouths and in the squating position, move across a distance. if the spaghetti breaks, then you'll have to take the shorter end and congratulations, you will be closer to your partner! haha. thank god ours broke a little bit and we still had a distance. Another game was the spiderweb. They just have to help everyone across strings tied in random directions between 2 trees. Next was this game where we had a pipe with alot of holes and we had to put a ping pong ball inside the pipe, fill the pipe with alot of water to make the ball float and get it out. But in the process, we'll have cover the holes and get wet. haha. After that was this partner game again. So anw my partner was sean. The guy/girl has to piggyback the other person and the one on top has to use his/her mouth to hold a cup with water and holes. Spin 2 rounds and try to pour as much water left as possible into this bucket. and apparently when we reach the bucket, the cup was already empty. hahahah. Lastly, we had the foot ladder game. We just have to stack the highest feet tower. Left kallang and headed back to school. We had house meetings and mass dance everyday. Btw, i'm in DIONYSUS! :D hehe.

DAY 5 - 6th FEB. We gathered in our IGs in the morn and had house meetings. After that we were all separated into our classes. haha i cant forget that feeling either. So lost and sad that we're leaving our IGs just when we got to know each other better. Then again, ice breaking games and lunch. Went to see our classroom for home tutorial. Our home tutor is Mrs Toh Yoke Fan. Did admin stuffs then we had a class picture. More games like handball, floorball. etc. Rained halfway then we went back to the auditorium before going home.

DAY 6 - 7th FEB. Gathered in our class again in the morning. Went for home tutorial again then we to hortpark for some games. The place was super hot and boring. Our class didnt seem interested in the games. lol. Everyone was so excited to go back to our IGs. so back in the auditorium, we slowly moved out of the audi one house by another. House meeting at the grand stand. Then changed into our orientation shirt and orientation finale! Skits, School survival guide, mass dance. lastly, after the whole thing, photo taking in the audi even when teachers chased us out of the audi. haha. Headed to town with Peilin's IG for dinner. some of them are my classmates. haha people like evelina, hui lak and randy. 171-ed home with pl. omg im finally done. Tmr will be the first day of wearing the uniform and there'll be this ceremony to welcome us officially. J2s are gna put the college badge on our collar for us. LOL. Okay till then for the next update.

facils: CJC ignite!
us: FLAME ON!

2009-02-01T01:10:00.000-08:00

Sch's starting tmr. I'm worried about my hair. My parents say that there are 2 tones. Congratulations, candice. CJC is so gna pull you out from orientation and chase you out of the compound. wtf. Dad's writing a letter though.

I've more or less chosen my subject combination. Just not sure whether to take 3H2 + 1H1 or 4H2. Physics is definitely eliminated from my combination. hahaha. Dad wants me to take Econs. And chem is compulsory in my combination. boo. Chemical equations are gna terrorize me again -.-

& my tuition teacher taught me how to go to CJC in the shortest route so yay! haha. okay fine laugh all you want because i dont know how to go to cjc at first. but i do now ok. 966 from pending. direct bus. perfect!

But i have to wake up earlier already. No more leaving of house at 7.05 and still be in time for flag raising in aes. haha.

I think i've gotten over my ego about acjc. Talked to my pri school friend over the phone the other night. and i convinced myself that it was purely about my ego that i was disappointed when i did not get into acjc. So now, i'm contented to be in cjc for i have to always bear in mind that my results appeared with much more extra luck than others have. & luck will not always be with me so, cjc will be just fine. As for sajc, again i convinced myself that it will be too far for me. I already dread the journey back home from aes. Imagine sajc. haha potong pasir siao.

As for CCA, im thinking of joining netball. haha. I wna try some sports. But cjc got gold for dance in syf. So again im tempted. Why am i always trap in between 2 choices. Tsk.

Lastly, friends who are not going to cjc, i really hope we can all stay in contact and not lose each other as friends. Congrats to all those who have gotten what they want (clara esp you cus i know you have been aiming for tourism! haha) ! And for those who haven't, dont lose hope, cause its not a dead end. Im not good at comforting so, i'll just stop.

Finally (LOL), I've quitted work at fish & co. sembawang last friday. haha. Closing of the restaurant was fun la. haha. We turned on the volume of the music and started cleaning. Jenson had to mop and sweep (as usual! haha), then i cleaned the railings while peilin sanitized the tables. Herwan joined us while waiting for his gf. hahaha. Idk but i found it fun ah. At fish & co., i've really learned quite a bit on how to communicate to customers and stuffs. i'd say that its a good experience (:

2009-01-29T21:36:00.000-08:00

Dad told me about the posting results early in the morning at about 7.30am. He said, "CJC, congrats!", while i was still dreamy in my sleep. It was only after that i felt a sting. So reality was, i couldnt get into acjc. Whats worst, when i was deciding whether to put sajc or cjc for second choice, i actually put cjc. Its like sajc has always been the WOW thing for me. Then idk why i put cjc (which doesnt wow me as much as sajc) as my second choice. Perhaps the distance from my house to sajc encouraged me to put cjc first. Yes, many would say, "be contented". But idk why i felt rather down after knowing that i got into cjc. Then more information hit me. and the worser i felt. Perhaps all i wanted was for my next school to not be like my miserable second half of my sec 4 life in aes. My dad told me that i just had to get over and done with this 2 years. I hope it'll feel like only 2 years. & i pray that cjc will not be another aes. I dont want to go through all the emotionally stinging/poking/terrorizing/hurting events again, regardless whether it was my own wrongdoings or others. I just want a happy life with friends in cjc.

oh a lighter note, alexandra is gng into cjc too! its been more than 4 years since i've last heard of/seen her. haha. cant wait to see her on mon (:

2009-01-24T08:57:00.000-08:00

23/01/09
Work the evening shift from 6-11. Dad came to pick me tgt with Jenson and Peilin (i mentioned your name already uh!) haha. In the day i just catched two totally toon-tastic (spl?) episodes of totally spies! awesome show really. haha.

24/01/09
Worked from 12-4 before my parents came to pick me up and we headed to jurong point to meet my aunty and cousins. did last min shopping for CNY and i managed to get my heels. Thank god.

Tmr will be the reunion dinner for my dad's side. haha its war time.

2009-01-17T19:52:00.000-08:00

14/01/09 - 16/01/09
Started the OJE thingy at fish & co, west coast plaza outlet. haha its quite fun i must say. A new experience. Plus we made new friends! :D Natalie, JP, Benjamin, Marvin, Marcus. Marcus is crappy. haha. He's quite a nice friend to joke with and he looks like he doesnt have any temper. lol. Cyclops! haha. Then Natalie is just plain crazy and whacky. She's funny and entertaining. haha. She was my trainer. Then JP's her boyfriend. He's nice too. lol. Benjamin was the anti-social guy at first cause he didnt talk to us but we figured out that we didnt talk to him too. lol. He's okay just that if he smiles more he'll look more friendly (: I've only worked with Marvin for an hour cause we had to leave at about 2 for Sembawang outlet's opening when he came at 1pm. He's rather approachable too. Anyway they're all friendly and nice people. haha.

so on the 16th, we worked from 10 -2 at west coast plaza before taking a cab down to sembawang at 2 plus tgt with jenson, a new friend who's currently waiting for his A level results. He just reminds me of Lester Choy. they have the same character but perhaps Jenson is more talkative. haha. so at sembawang the 3 of us are friends tgt as we dont really know the rest. I was the greeter for the opening of the outlet and something scary happened.

I saw this man who kept staring at me and he lingered outside the restaurant. As i was new, I was still err raw and i didnt really approach everyone that looked my way. So i kinda ignored him. Then one of the staff came to tell me that he was the co-founder of fish & co!! at that moment, my heart almost burst out of my ribcage. I started sweating and all. Then he came closer and i handed him a menu, pretending that he was just a normal customer when i knew he was the big boss (he knew that i knew too). then he just smiled at me and then chatted with me! my god. So bloody scary. haha. Then the rest of the HQ people came. Mostly from the marketing department. Worst of all, they made me hand them the menu! So as a greeter i had to tell them about the promotions/soup of the day, etc. which they ALREADY KNEW! especially the promotions since they were from the marketing department -.- They all laughed at me while i was naming out the promotions. walao! freaking scary ok.

Then 10pm came and we went to change. Dad came and pick us up.

haha anyway they are all experiences i've never tried and i'm glad i had the chance. (although im only working for less than a month..... =/) and most of all, im so happy i made so many new friends (: Friends who are easy to communicate and approachable.

2009-01-12T20:30:00.001-08:00

My hard work paid off. Not to forget to mention the extra luck i had with me. I got what i wanted. In fact much more than i ever aimed for. and i do have to thank people like my family, teachers and esp my tuition teacher. She predicted well and she gave me a lot of confidence. okay enough of the serious tone. IM SOOOOOOOO HAPPY!! :D i could have went bonkers upon receiving my results. my dream came true (to have my name on the screen). okay yes its a dumb dream but it was really fufilling. Also to beat my relative. hahaha. Im also glad that my parents are over the moon, feeling as happy as i am cause they hell never expected such results. hehe.

six and nine. my god!

ps. the physics results was madness. B3 when i left so many marks blank. haha now i know the importance of moderation.

2009-01-07T03:21:00.000-08:00

DECEMBER PHOTOS..

2008-12-31T23:29:00.000-08:00

hello it's 01/01/09.

New year, new resolutions. Everyone is doing that. I don't seem to have any resolution yet. Or maybe i just wanna see my results first before i make any promises to myself. If i ever get the results i crave for, i'll really have to thank god for granting me the best present so far. If im going into a poly, i think i'll most probably enter Ngee Ann Poly. lol just doing the tradition of following my sibling's footsteps. I have a tiny bit of interest for tourism and business-related courses. Other than that, the rest of the courses introduced by the various polytechnics do not interest me at all. oh great. tsk. CJC is definitely out of my league now. To think i actually aimed for that previously. haha ok laugh all you want cause my results will never bring me to CJC. So i'm praying for at least PJC. or rather if i ever get into a JC i'll say that i'm just freaking lucky.

31/12/08, yesterday.
firstly, Happy birthday Zeyan! :D

To celebrate the new year, i went to eddie's friend, Xuan Feng's house with him. haha. so we went to gamble. lol and Yew Seng was there too! surprising at first. The first game was blackjack before they changed the game to texas poker. haha omg this game is mind-gruelling and the cards always tempt you. I took so long to understand how to play the game. haha interesting. Played till about 3.30am before Eddie drove me home first as my battery went flat. I was never nocturnal ha. Fortunately his house was very near our house so it was pretty convenient. Eddie went back to play again while i dropped dead on my bed.

the concert is just 2 days away. ooo everytime i think of it i get rhinos stomping around in my stomach. tsk. I pray, pray, pray that i'll put up an err acceptable performance. ha.

2008-12-31T23:19:00.000-08:00

while chatting with edwin on skype the other day, he mentioned that liverpool won newcastle. haha. 5-1. awesome awesome. haha ____ dt be sad la k. it's expected. HA ok i'm kidding. anw, ever since edwin went to china, i have not been watching any soccer matches. To be honest, i've never been THAT into soccer before. I just like to watch liverpool matches (bro's influence) and to be more specific, Steven Gerrard. haha. Honestly, i prefer him to Fernando Torres. Love the way he composes himself on the field. He always has that 'dont worry we'll fight and win' look on his face. optimistic guy i suppose. Read the papers recently and saw that he was arrested for assaulting a man tgt with 5 other people. I was like ?@$% when i read it cus that didnt sound like Steven Gerrard at all. lets hope he'll be fine. if i ever get to own a Liverpool jersey, i'll definitely print Gerrard's name on it. right focus on the word ever. Edwin's friend has Gerrard's biography with us and when i finish breaking dawn perhaps i'll go check it out.

ps. Gerrard has this awesome hair colour.

2008-12-27T21:35:00.000-08:00

The year's coming to an end. What a crazy year i must admit. A year of many ups and downs (or rather to be more exact, more downs) to make me realise what i actually want in my life. 2008 has been the year which i have studied the most for my exams (duh its O's) but i'm quite satisfied at the effort i've put in. I can only pray that my efforts will be reciprocated in jan 09 when the results are out. December has been a total family month for i spent a lot of time with my cousins. Basketball, bowling, and more importantly, feasting was absolutely satisfying and i feel that it's easier to be around cousins. I guess it's cus we have seen each other grow up and we understand each other better. But no matter what, cousins just cant seem to fill the emptiness in the 'friends-section'. Boo. Nonetheless, i'm excited to move on to JC/poly to meet new friends and adopt a new lifestyle. A complete change will do me good i guess.

24/12/08, wed.
christmas eve! Celebrated christmas at cousin yen qi's house. This year has been different for the past years we have been celebrating at my uncle's house. I wouldnt say 'thank god he went overseas so we can organise our own celebration for once' but still, i'm glad there was a chance for a change in the celebration. haha. My aunty made me the my favourite, banana with chocolate again! haha. christmas songs played through a speaker, delicious food spread out over a large table, exchanging of presents and lastly, gathering with family made my christmas a happy one! Played games like pass the parcel and chop chilli chop (idk how you spell it) with my nieces and nephew. They are the most hyper kids i've ever seen man. They never have the word tired in their dictionary.

As for the rest of december, I've been to Mom's workplace to help her out during the busiest time of the year tgt with my cousins. There was once where i cycled from mom's place to my aunt's workplace to help her and gosh it was awesome having to brace the storm tgt (lol) with my beloved bicycle again (my dad gave it to my uncle). haha just pure shiok-ness.

Bowling sessions with cousins too. My cousins can be really crazy at times. I dont know when we started giving each other names. Felina would be nazarax. Felicia - pongster (there are many more for her haha). Eugene - eugenious and me - kandi. idk why i'm kandi anyway. haha.

25/12/08, thursday
Celebrated christmas yet again at Cousin yen qi's house. it wasnt exactly a christmas but more for a birthday celebration. They ordered sakae sushi but the retarded system of theirs cocked up and we didnt receive our sakae sushu on the 24th. they wouldnt allow a refund too so they delivered it on the 25th and we went over to share the joy. haha. As usual, felina and i attacked the bowls of chawanmushi. Yen Qi's birthday falls on the 26th while my aunt's one falls on the 28th so we used the log cake to err celebrate their birthday tgt. the log cake was awesome btw.

26/12/08, friday
Went to the airport to send Yen Ling, godma, godpa, licole, lindsay off to the airport for they are heading to Hokkaido! haha and i told licole to bring me back snow as a gift! haha idk if she really believes it. I hope they enjoy their trip.

27/12/08, saturday
Had brunch with eddie and mom at greenridge. Headed to the CC for a while before going to change. Made a deal with eddie at home : i would help him wrap his present while he fetches me to the interchange so i wouldnt be late. haha i guess i had more advantage. He's just plain lazy to wrap his present up. lol. Met felicia and we took 180 to jp. haha anyway, if any of you dont know yet, jp is like twice its size now. Been there quite a few times but i havent really walked the entire mall yet. Met up with felina there and we found my aunt's present quite easily. Settled for a drink at starbucks before we went to bpp to order her cake and lrt-ed home. My aunt was definitely gna pop by my house to visit grandma today so when the doorbell rang, we switched off the lights and lit the candles. To our horror, or just plain astonishment, my uncle came alone! Super anti-climax la. seriously we were preparing to sing the song already. Okay joke of the day. But in the end we went over the her house instead and gave her the surprise. So it turned out that she wasn't feeling well so she stayed home. She didn't even notice us who doesnt live with her (mom dad me) entering her house into her kitchen. lol. i suppose she's really ill. So that was a simple celebration for my aunt and lol we told her the joke of the day too. haha. Back home, mom and i quickly showered before we settled down to chiong our dvd. haha. eh the gem of life is seriously a freaking nice show. all should watch it.

28/12/08, sunday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 姑姑! (:
gng to shop for my long awaited cupboard soon hehe.

btw, BREAKING DAWN IS AWESOME! it's the ultimate page-turner man! Cant keep my eyes off it. haha. oh renesmee. hehe. if i were to rate the 4 books, i'd say that the best is still twilight, followed by breaking dawn, eclipse and lastly new moon. New moon is seriously boring. Okay im gng back into the world of vampires and werewolfs. The snarls and the howls. hahaha.

2008-12-21T06:44:00.000-08:00

21/12/08, sunday

Put in more effort? I tried. Be less sensitive? I tried. Take the initiative? I tried. I dont know what else I can do. I dont even know why these happened. I dont want to lose them yet i dont know how not to. it hurts.

someone once said, 'acceptance is what everyone craves for.' how true. i miss them. really do.

yes i'm feeling so emo. whatever. if you think im attracting attention, then so be it.

2008-12-18T19:22:00.000-08:00

17/12/08, wednesday
Stayed over at Felicia's place with eugene. BUT Felina was asleep when i got there! hmph. Eugene got hungry in the night (as usual) and we three walked to the coffeeshop at bangkit to get his FOOD. Played board games to relive our childhood stay-overs! hahaha. I was the first to knock out cus apparently felicia and eugene are alive at night.

18/12/08, thurs.
OMG. the most awaited movie of the year! TWILIGHT! gahhhhhhhhht the movie was absolutely fantastic and edward cullennnnnnnn! my goodness. no wonder bella is helplessly in love with him. However, i still must admit that the movie was definitely not as nice as the book as they removed quite a bit of scenes here and there to squeeze it into a 2h 2min movie. The movie progressed so fast it was like chapter 10 alr after half an hour of the show. LOL. Excellent movie nonetheless. i really really really hope new moon comes out. cus that will mean that eclipse and breaking dawn will definitely be in the movies too! which means we get to see bella turning into a vampire and their child too! :D :D :D lets not forget the jacob, the big bad wolf. ok no. just a werewolf. Jacob didnt look like how i had imagined him to be in the movie. He looked weird. Rosalie too. I expected her to look prettier as described in the book. ohwell. haha the scene where Bella was walking up the stairs in Edward's house was freaking funny (the graduation hats). hahaha. Jasper was cool. Alice was cooler. And the baseball scene where James said "you brought a snack!" was uber uber uber cool. Cus all the cullens snarled at the vicious vampires. ooo ooo! But the part where Edward appeared to have diamonds on his body or smth when he stands in the sun was weird. anyway, thats quite a bit on twilight already so lets move on. for those who haven't seen the movie, idk what you're thinking cus you're missing out! I must thank felicia for introducing me the book uh.

so anyway ytd, i met up with felicia felina and eugene at bp interchange and we headed down to town for shopping! and of cus twilight. Bought dresses :D hehe. But we were smart to get the tickets first thing when we reached town at like 1 plus. bought tickets for 5.35 pm. The tickets were selling at an amazing speed. I bet the whole queue was intending to watch twilight. lol. We went to get felicia and felina's christmas present! i hope you two like the wallet and the flip flops. After the movie, we walked around cine and got ourselves x'mas tees for all of us to wear on the christmas party at yanqi jiejie's house :)

took 700 home and alighted at pending while dad picked us up from there.

Tried on the dresses i bought and mom loved one of it and even asked me to get one for her too. haha. Watched the gem of life, 珠光宝气 while waiting for my dinner. haha mom always gets the best hk dramas.

19/12/08, friday.
i have no plans today so i guess i'm gonna continue with eclipse so i can quickly get to breaking dawn cus my cousin said it's v nice.

the twilight series is definitely nicer than harry potter in my opinion cus it involves romance. hahaha. and for those who dont know, there's another book, midnight sun, which is actually twilight just that it is written in edward's point of view instead of bella's. It is again introduced by my cousin. haha. You can only read it online though.

it's friday again so Eddie's booking out today again! :D

2008-12-12T21:54:00.000-08:00

11/12/08, thursday.
Was dragged out of bed by mom's call to go down to her place to help her at about 9. Apparently, my uncle (the boss) had instructed her to do that :O Eugene and Colin was already there when i reached. There was a lot of people there to help out too. All cus of that sickening proteach. At my mom's place, its inevitable for you to have cuts on your hands luh. Paper can be silent killers too. once you're not careful, it just lashes across your fingers and then, a red line is formed. Red liquid starts oozing out too. -.- ok anyway, we did the fastening and packing for more than 8 hours. crazy shit. But with eugene's crappy mouth, time passed by quite quickly. haha.

12/12/08, friday.
Met up with felina at bangkit lrt station and again, it was my mom's workplace. The same old thing again. Eugene had school (tsk) so only Colin came. After a day of helping out, we went to Lot 1 for dinner. wanted to have Sakae Sushi but apparently the queue was insane. So we went up to the food junction for japanese cuisines instead. haha. Went home and i only managed to catch half and hour of the channel 8 drama, the little nyonya. I must agree that Jeanette's acting is great. (:

13/12/08, saturday.
I am so bored which explains why i'm here blogging now -.- Its pouring outside too. I dont feel like going out, but i dont feel like staying at home either. IDK what to do. tsk.

5 more days to twilight! (:

2008-12-05T02:30:00.000-08:00

04/12/08, Thursday. Amazingly, i dedicated more than 2hrs to my piano. yay feel excited for me cus i used to ignore the piano and only touch it during lessons. =/ haha i was having a good time with it and this is weird la. I have not spent that much time on it before. hahaha. oh well. it's a good thing anyway. My teacher is hoping that i can go for the exam next year and I gave her that are-you-crazy look. seriously! she's crazy. Anyway, i left for Jurong Point in the evening to celebrate Lindsay's birthday (niece). we had japanese buffet and omg. It was FANTASTIC! swear! It's located at B1 in jp. $35.90++ per person. i literally had 4 bowls of chawanmushi! LOL. my cousin called me ms chawanmushi -.- hey but their servings werent that big and most importantly, theirs taste much better than sakae's. They had a variety of raw food and desserts. (i almost typed desert -.-) No need to describe further for they have the bomb. CHOCOLATE FONDUE!! omg i went straight to attack the bananas with the chocolate. oooo i wna go there again! Anyway, im not good at describing so just some pictures instead. But excuse the quality of the camera cus it's only 5 megapixel. =/

2008-12-03T22:14:00.000-08:00

Eddie has some virus infection. Edwin has a high fever. and boo hoo guess what. They are both away from home. Especially Edwin. ): I hope you're feeling better now. Tc! and vincent too! Dad asked you to take care of Edwin but you fell sick too! haha. you take care too!

Before O's, there were so many things planned to do after O's. So many wishes. But now that it's after O's, idk why but i feel lost. Now that the major responsibility of mine to study has been 'removed' from my life temporary, idk what i should do. Tv? yeah i have been catching Tom and Jerry and powerpuff girls on cartoon network almost everyday. Channel 8 dramas at night. And Taiwan/Hongkong serials till midnight with mom everyday. Going out? nah. What can you do without money. Jobs? yes i seriously need a job to get some extra cash for entertainment. but i can't find one. boo hoo.

I am not looking forward to christmas or CNY. aiya. every festival without Edwin is always boring and weird. Even attending weddings. I will die of boredom if he's not there. and not forgetting, food without edwin is.. unbearable to my mom i guess. Okay nt to that extent but smth like that. Cus with Edwin around, he'll always be the one 'clearing' the leftovers. haha. He's got such a big appetite for everything, he always helps to finish the food and we just love to have him around for food. He can make the food sound/look so delicious with his expressions and when he acts like a bin, clearing up the leftovers while the rest of us hit the stop button, it's amusing to see how he loved food so much. LOL. He's the ideal candidate for your makan partner.

My piano teacher is organising another mini concert with all her students again. 3rd january. Hmm. I cant decide on which piece to play cus i'm not familiar with all of them. The last resort would be my last exam's pieces. but it's so BORING. always playing that 3 pieces. However i have no patience to go and practice a new piece. so well, i guess i've made my choice. lol. She mentioned to me that licole (my niece) has been so playful that there's once where she just went into my teacher's house and hid under the table! My poor teacher couldn't find her. haha. But she complimented her too, saying that she can identify the notes very quickly. awesome. haha.

Dancing courses! yes i'm so tempted to join some. Perhaps something different like salsa? or back to the common dance, hiphop? aiya idk. I'm so lazy to register myself too. ooh, i think those ballerinas are so awesome. My mom didnt allow me to learn ballet when i was young. she said it was non-beneficial. oh well. haha.

I have been having awesome dreams these days. I shall not mention here but how i wish those dreams would become reality. ps. i'm so glad we're talking again :D

Brenda's birthday is coming! happy advanced 16th birthday idiot! haha. i hope we'll stay as idiots forever. lol that doesnt sound really right. hahaha.

here's an extract from edwin and vincent's blog.
"One more thing,the both of us are participating in the hotel's Christmas 点灯仪式.We're gonna sing christmas carols this coming friday at the lobby.
Well,it's time to prepare our vocals and impress.Till then..=) "
haha i'm sure you guys will impress the china dudes there! just do your normal doujiang youtiao thingy. jiayou! :D and pls get well soon the both of you.

2008-11-29T20:50:00.000-08:00

Eddie's birthday was awesome! especially during the photo taking. and i swear i had a great time using his camera except that i had to be constantly taking photos (it used to be edwin's job). haha. So basically during the whole time i was taking photos for Eddie and his friends and i clocked a total of 270+ photos! my god. I happily snapped my way throughout the whole party and i did not realise that i had actually taken THAT many photos. LOL. Chatted with only Eugene Lau and Louis. haha the two who always talk nothing but crap which never fails to crack me up! Towards the end of the party, My aunty and i played this game, find-the-diff-in-the-pics (idk what it's called) in louis's iphone. So as usual, Louis and i just challenged each other's ego. and our ego can go skyhigh man. hahaha. but we both know that it's just for laughs. Eugene's sister is in AES too! sec 2 next year but i still dont know who she is. lol.

one of a kind family portrait (thats edwin in the com (webcam) btw.) haha.

2008-11-28T05:50:00.000-08:00

HOLA BUYA KULA!

guess what guess what?? tmr's Eddie's 21st birthday! :D I hope it'll be a blast! haha.

25/11/08, Tuesday.
Prom was fun. haha. Ty to all the organisers! Katherine came over to get ready and all before my parents fetched us to Park hotel. Walked around paragon while waiting for the rest before going up to the waiting room. Started the cam-whoring session and settled down on this table tgt with kenny, jx, mic and bernard. and then they played games. One of them involved tying this thingy around your waist and swing it to push the ball to the finishing line. lol. Second was having to hold one of your partner's hand and exchanging clothes (each have to wear a piece of clothing, given by the hosts). Played that with Bernard then it was dance till the end of the prom. Walked around town for a while and parents came to pick me up at plaza sing.

26/11/08, Wednesday
Spent the day rotting at home in the day and met up with mic to send Zhangxu off at the airport at night. Unfortunately, we saw the last train zoommped past us when we were almost at the platform already. tsk.

Pics soon!

Fall for you-Secondhand Serenade
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting.
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying;
I know you're wearing thin down to the core.

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again.
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day.
I swear it's true,
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
You're impossible to find.

2008-11-22T21:53:00.000-08:00

Just checked the net and i think the movie Twilight is only going to be release on the 18 dec in Singapore. which means there's still a freaking long way to go tsk. I've just started on New moon but i heard that it isn't as nice as twilight. oh well.

22 nov 08
Went back to school to clear our lockers and return the keys. It was AES's open house too but i hardly saw parents. =/ Stayed in the dance studio for some time before i went to find mom at her workplace. Dad picked us up and we went to this place, Rochor centre or wdv i dont know the name, to get eddie's birthday's decorations. Plus some christmas decorations. Then we drove down to far east to get my dress from the alteration shop. Before heading home, we went to bpp to get some stuffs, then to bangkit and lastly, back home.

oh Edward Cullen! *drools*

2008-11-18T06:45:00.000-08:00

18/11/08
First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDWIN ONG SHAO XIAN! You're 19 already! (and you're overseas too tsk.) We are currently waiting for you to come online to skype to sing a birthday song for you. so, come quick. I hope you have a memorable china-birthday with your best friend and dont forget to send the pics over ! haha .

DON'T LAUGH.

NEXT,

Escape today with mic, clara, kenny, jx, pl. I'd still think that the family coaster and the pirate ship thingy were the nicest. Wet and wild was scary. 2nd attempt at it. The ride that i shouted, or rather, screamed the most. and the loudest. Inverter was fun when we first played it but subsequent rides killed my thighs especially the last ride. And mind you i have thunder thighs. Imagine my thunder thighs squashed hard by some black safety thingy with ultimate strength. Pain..... I enjoyed the viking the most though i still didn't dare to raise my hands while going down. haha. pl did that luh! a pity i couldnt. tsk. They had dinner at White Sands shopping mall/centre and it was the dreaded journey home after that. Alighted at cck station and walked around lot 1 while waiting for dad. I saw timothy loh yu with this guy who's name i cant rmb. haha. what a coincidence. So while walking to dad's car, i saw anqi too! what a double coincidence. oh yeah we met some assumptionites in escape too. Triple C. lol. pics another time!

NEXT,

Twilight is super engaging. My cousin introduced it to me and while i was talking to pl about the book since she was reading too, we had the same thoughts about Edward Cullen, a character in the book. He sounds hot and mesmerizing. i'd love to meet him! haha. My cousin has already bought all four books of this vampire romance story so that saves me quite a bit of $$$! hehe. And she told me that the 5th book, is available to read online. And this time it is written in Edward's point of view. Cooooooolsome.

2008-11-17T03:29:00.000-08:00

15/11/08, Saturday.
Edwin left Singapore for China. We reached the airport at like 9.30pm. Had dinner with aunty and family before we sent Edwin and his friend off at the departure hall at 0055. ):

16/11/08, Sunday
Stayed at the airport till about 4.15am before Eddie arrived back to Singapore from Australia. It was crazy to stay at the airport to wait for Eddie. My eyes went dry and i was so bloody tired. I am so not a nocturnal animal. Eddie got me a wallet! hehe (:

After we all woke up at about 10am, Edwin called us through Skype and we had a video conference. Everyone was glad that he reached there safely. Then at night, He called again. The webcam was facing my grandma and dad all along. I didn't wanna talk cus i really felt like something was in my throat, and i wanted to cry. When dad shifted the webcam to face me, Edwin didn't say anything but just raised one of his eyebrow and gave me that edwin look. So i raised my eyebrow back at him too. It's like one of the Edwin-Candice thing. I swear i felt like crying at that time. I miss Edwin. I really cant wait for March 09 to arrive ):

Edwin is the closest man to me. Not my dad nor Eddie since Edwin spends most time with me. He's really nice. I appreciated it a lot when he fetches me from school when it's raining. Even when he's still in bed. And at times, he does crazy stuffs which just makes me smile. I remembered once where i was about to sleep, and he just gave a knock on my door, before saying "candice, get'cha head in the game". He was so damn random! I was like wth la. Crazy ass.

alright lets not get all emo here. Its just 4.5 months. It'll be over soon. I hope. gahhhhhhhhhhhh my brother.

NEXT

Prom's coming. Gonna grab Eddie to shop with me for my dress soon before he goes back to camp again . boo . If only i had sisters.....

2008-11-15T04:40:00.000-08:00

alright. ho ho. O'S OVER! i guess i'm the latest in announcing this ground-shaking, tremendously great news.

TODAY 15/11/08
I met up with April Tan Wen Jun today at Jurong Point after 4 years. haha. my primary school giggling partner. (our teacher called us the giggling girls -.-) She hasn't change any bit though. haha. We had lunch at pizzahut and spent the an hour plus chatting about our primary school and sharing news about the high-profiled people when we were in pri sch. And i was so surprised when she told me some female pri sch mates, became so wild when they were actually so conservative in pri sch! haha. People change. how true. haha.

After that we went to watch Madagascar 2. Thumbs up for that movie! It was hilarious and engaging throughout. I guess i should go watch the first part soon.. Walked around and went home.

Gonna send my brother off at the airport later. He's going to China for his overseas attachment. He'll only be back next year after CNY. Boo hoo. so long. So his flight is 11 plus and on the other hand, Eddie is coming back to Singapore after 1 month of training at Australia, Queensland at about 5am.

NEXT,

Graduation was ... I dont know what to say. We didn't even get our testimonials. But the school's getting rich i guess. The year book was coloured throughout :O Picture taking after the ceremony and i headed to cineleisure with clara and michaela for karaoke at kbox. 2pm to 7pm. Fun but rather crazy. haha. the room never fails to freeze our bodies till we do the shake-your-body dance. (trembling..)

Dad came to pick me up at Heeren and we went to Greenridge for dinner to celebrate Edwin's birthday since he'll be in China on that day. Mom ordered ALOT of food. But it was good cus that dinner was together with breakfast and lunch.

NEXT

i've got quite a bit of after-O levels's plans. Firstly, im craving to watch MVP 情人 again. I've got lots of time anyway. Secondly, im thinking of working. Not sure yet. I need the money to shop. I'm pretty much broke now after that shopping spree. Thirdly, outings! i'd love to go out with friends to just enjoy and celebrate for any positive thing. idk. Alright i have not really thought of what to do. Feeling rather lost after O's cus before O's, it was study, study and study.

off to the airport!

2008-11-02T06:34:00.000-08:00

-Four more papers to go and finally, Its over.
Tmr is the SS paper and for once im seriously not the least bit confident for the paper. Disappointing.

-But i sure do look forward to that one week break after tmr! (:

-I never once thought one needed to know a certain amount of info about their idol to admire them. what shallow ideas considering that it came from you, one i thought mature when i knew you a long time ago.

-cant wait to shop for dresses!

2008-10-24T05:35:00.000-07:00

a math P2 today! And and and a math is over! wahahahaha.
Had e math P1 today early in the morning at 8 till 10. Headed to plaza with clara, mic, jannah, kenny, jx for mac breakfast. hoohoo. After which we went back to school for a math paper 2 starting at 2.30. But it was still a long way to go before the paper started so we slacked around this table, doing nothing by lazy-ing around with the psp and ipod. but it was fun. haha.

Then the paper started and the first hour i was about to fall asleep! And the cause: staying up the night before to watch Luo Zhi Xiang's, Lee hom's and jay chou's videos on youtube -.-

and now, i'm still watching! waka i swear its very very entertaining. especially 小猪 & 小鬼。

so the weekends are finally here and the first week of o levels is over. thank god. just a few more papers to go before the burning of TYSs.

cant wait for eddie's return from Aussie (that's what he calls it).

2008-10-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

dear bb,

'examine what is said, not him who said'.
yes exactly. so tell me what the mistakes are instead of condemning me. you dont even understand what you're saying yourself. and you're not worth dirtying my tagboard so if you wanna talk about this further, you may look for me in aes. i'll be waiting.

2008-10-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

1) Its 2 more hours before i gotta leave the house for the a math paper which i totally have no confidence in (i got a bloody C during prelims -.-)

2) Eddie's gone to Australia for 26 days and by the time he comes back, o levels will be over! that sounds really great. and following that will be his birthday celebration. haha. 21st birthday celebration of his is sure gna be rocking man. (judging from the number of people he's inviting. lol)

3) I'm really missing you. you have been gone for far too long this time round. Those people kept you captive for almost a week and still, i have no news of you. When you were not around, nobody could replace you. I had a spare one, but it cannot compare to you at all. You look so gorgeous, everyone's waiting to get their hands on you. But now that you're not by my side, it feels out of place. Come back quick my dear. I'll be waiting with open arms for you have been gone for far too long, w910i.

4) 'you reap what you sow'. i sure hope that's true.

5) everything's fine now. there will always be a rainbow after the storm (read it somewhere..)

2008-10-18T08:02:00.000-07:00

jay's album is awesome to the max.
love the song 说好的幸福呢。
his voice is so .. mesmerizing.
went to pre-order his album at sembawang at lot1 and i saw that many had already done that. :O
anyway, this album is just one of the best. or perhaps, the best. has many different kinds of songs. i dont know what's the right word to describe it but this album is just fantastic. every song is good. it's hard to find an album where every song is nice. and more importantly, most of the songs are written by him. Again, i dont think there are many singers who write their own songs (nice ones). so in conclusion, he's awesome.

2008-10-10T06:45:00.000-07:00

1) 10 more days to o levels. :/

2) cambodia photos are finally ready. Its been like a year already! plus the pottery we did in cambodia is back too. haha.

3) Have been staying at home for self-study.

4) i wanna watch mama mia!

2008-10-05T05:30:00.000-07:00

so much has happened recently. its amazing how others manage to create things out so perfectly until you yourself only know from other's about things you've said or done. or rather, what others have said on your behalf. wow. its like others come telling you 'why did you say/do that?' and confusingly, you asked yourself since when man. and obviously, you have no idea. cus why? cus you did not even say that. yeah thats what true friends do to you. they create trouble on your behalf. oh well, its just my luck. and the other thing that true friends do is that they do not believe you. true friends? hmm. They do not listen to your explanations or even try to think logically. they assume you want to create trouble, get yourself into such a situation just 2/3 weeks before Os. if i have ever done anything wrong, i would definitely apologise. and i mean it. but if i have not, and friends do not believe me, then lets just change the word, true to fake. oh wait, they are not even friends.

and if you have the evidence/whatsoever, then bring it to my face. and if you dare (thats if you have the guts), come and confront me.

2008-09-04T06:11:00.001-07:00

mom said that this year would bring about many changes.
no 1 : my piano exam results will determine whether i can advance to the last one.
no 2 : the obvious o levels which will determine whether i go to jc or poly.
no 3 : eddie's commissioning
no 4 : edwin's confirmation on whether he is gng for the overseas attachment. if he goes, and eddie's in camp, the house is gna be so quiet......): and if he's gng, he's gna miss my and mom's birthday. boo. plus, he wont be around for my cousin's wedding and chinese new year next year and and christmas! i'll be so lonely at home if he goes. sigh.

all of us has grown up now. eddie's already turning 21 this year. Edwin's gng into the army soon and he has somehow completed his poly journey already. Im taking my O's! It feels like time is passing by too quickly. i always picture all 3 of us growing up becoming adults and my parents growing old. will my mom and dad still joke around or will they become old and boring. LOL. and aiya. many things gng through my mind. AND o levels is driving me nuts.

2008-09-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

i need to graduate and enter a new poly/jc asap.

2008-09-02T03:27:00.000-07:00

went to sch today for a maths. ahh, got back our prelim papers. got a C. hmm. not good. but im trying to stay positive! hahaha. its not over until O's. so persevere candice! you must get at least a B3. unless you can do well in your freaking chem/physics which is impossible.

edwin will be gng for his overseas attachment very soon (most probably). and it'll be 6 months. ):

Edde's having his commissioning parade or smth like that very soon. (like graduation day for them in OCS). cant wait!

as for me, Life has not been very good though. Poor results plus poor relationships. gahh. Edwin always sings the torres song whenever there's liverpool matches. and dk why, so coincidentally, torres will score. lol. i guess i'll go make mine song and i'll sing till my voice is gone. i dont mind if that improves everything.

2008-08-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

prelim's over. finally. it has been really stressful throughout the whole one week plus. thank god its over.

i'm not happy these days. i don't like the distance between us. we used to joke and laugh around like crazy. used to. but not now. to be honest, i feel somehow left out. but thats not the main point actually. and the main point is, im sad. that we're not close friends anymore. and idk why. seriously. both of you appear normal in messages. but its different in reality. both of you said that nothing has happened. but i do feel it. i really do.

I dont go shopping/go out with you no more. maybe its because of exams. or maybe you've closer friends nowadays. thinking back about how we used to play pool together, it sucks to know its all so different now. maybe its cus we were never close before since i only got to know you as a friend when we were in the same class last year.

we used to crap around. on the way to the bio lab, or on the way to the canteen to get the chicken wings to eat them secretly in the bio lab. its been four years since i first knew you. and i remembered that the first person in 1/1 that i ever talked to was you. because me and mic had to borrow exercise books from you. and then we were great until now. maybe im being sensitive. but perhaps i'm not the only one who can tell the difference in us. i seriously dk why.

I find it amazing for me to be so emo over friends. but maybe its cus they arent just normal friends to me. I really miss them, brenda and annabelle.

2008-08-23T21:00:00.001-07:00

yesterday was a fantastic, indescribable night with GERRARD SCORING AT THE 93rd/94th MINUTE!!!!!!!!!! the first hour of the game was tense but there wasn't any goals. then some MIDO guy had to score for middlesbrough. tsk. and my brother's morale took a nose dive. (okay no he didn't to that extent. i just felt like typing that phrase) and then............. out of no where, CARRAGHER SCORED at the 86th min (if i rmbed correctly)! but i didnt witness the goal on the spot (only watched the replay) cus i was doing my revision (hehe in the living room :X). my brother screamed. and wait.. thats not all...... cus.........

JUST WHEN we thought it would be a DRAW, gerrard chiong-ed all the way and GOAAAAAAAALLLLLLLL! yeah. HE SCORED A GOAL so so so so so so late. but still, ITS A GOAL. its amazing how liverpool managed to turn tables around at the last part. hehehehehehe. once again, GERRARD'S THE MAN YO! :D

2008-08-11T02:00:00.001-07:00

today! 11/08/08

no sch today (national day holiday) so i stayed at home the whole day. Was watching a bit ot tv in the morning until about 12pm. Got bored and was too lazy to study myself so i called my tuition teacher to come. and so happen that she was available so she arrived at about 1. then tuition all the way till 4. then my piano teacher came just nice when we ended our tuition. so piano till about 5. and here i am blogging! LOL.

waiting for mom's call to go meet her for dinner tgt with edwin. and besides rotting at home, we're enjoying derrick's songs. Derrick as in that superstar contestant. his songs are good man. Its worth buying his album(: and we think he's super like luo zhi xiang. go see his album and you'll know what i mean. anyway, i think he has both the looks and the voice. cool guy.

so sch's starting tmr. and then prelims. ger gah goo ~

btw, go listen to shun shi zhen by gigi leung. uber nice.

2008-08-10T02:09:00.001-07:00

HOLAAAAAAA IM back. after. so. freaking. long.
so many things i want to blog about but so many i can no longer remember. so i'll just blog whatever that comes to my mind.

1) EDWIN got his lasik surgery done! say bye bye to your contact lens or specs yo! :D

2) EDDIE got the highest score for some shooting thingy in OCS. great job shao jie! :D

3) PE has been really fun each week. with new funny scenes surfacing everytime we play soccer. hahaha. So i particularly rmbed one week where we (those who played soccer) left the canteen rather late (its eng anyway). then idk who started pulling each other's pants down. hahaha. thank god i wasnt a victim. anyway, we just laughed and had much fun on the way back to the heavenly class located at such a high altitude. LOL.

4) Bio and Physics SPA skill 3 is over and we left one more assessment for chem and we'll be done with SPA.

5) PRELIMS is coming in about a week's time! :X

6) English o level orals this coming tuesday :(

7) Japanese people came over for the exchange programme and it just reminded me of my japan trip and the times while i hosted 2 girls. and i particularly rmb one of the girls whom i hosted, chiyuki, that her boyfriend, toshiki/tokishi was f-ing handsome. hahahaha. :x when i hosted her, she showed me the photograph and i was anxiously waiting for the japan trip so i could take a look at him. hahaha. eh but he was cute luh. im not the only one who feels that way okay. haha. and he can dance.

8) MINWOO from shinhwa is damn bloody cool. i. swear. i spent quite some time yesterday just watching a lot of his videos on youtube. haha.

9) have been staying back in school till night with kenny and jx and sometimes katherine since a week plus ago. Its effective since i cant study when i get home. plus staying in school sets the studying mood.

10) i cant bloody wait for chinese results which is most probably coming out next week. gahhhhhhhh! give me my A please :/

11) talking about results, im taking my piano exam on the 18th of august which is the first day of prelims! double gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im not prepared :( please let me successfully advance to the last one.

12) something happened between me and brenda and maybe annabelle ah. Some retarded people apparently spreaded some rumours, untrue words which idk what motive they have. but yeah, i know i have not done anything wrong and i've explained myself to the both of them but idk if they believe or not. Thats not within my control. But i hope they do. Even if they dont, there's nth i can do ah. More importantly to me is that i know i've done nothing wrong. If i have, i would feel guilty but im not. so yeah. aiya. i believe they'll believe though. aiya. idk.

13) i lost my locker key few days back. And i was so desperate for it la! then i decided to find mr michael to ask if has an extra to let me just open my locker. so i went to look for him in the staff room but he wasnt in. Then i rmbed kat told me to go to the general office to check for lost keys. and guess what. I FOUND MY KEY! :DD so i went in and i asked ' do you happen to have found any keys?' then that woman told me to describe my key. so katherine said 'its with a blue tag and has a red keychain' and then the woman lifted my key in the air!!!!!!! and i literally screamed in the general office. hahahaha.

14) okay i've runned out of things to type.

lastly, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh go check out MINWOO man! hehe.

2008-07-07T03:52:00.000-07:00

egoistic, self-centered, materialistic, ~~truthful~~, _________ (fit in any other negative adjectives) yup thats you if you haven't realize.

2008-07-07T03:45:00.000-07:00

hokay people COSB not replying any tags on tagboard for the moment. will be in posts instead. (:

and you (candice), dont waste your effort trying to piss me off cus i wont be, sucka (:

2008-07-05T21:52:00.000-07:00

yesterday! rather awesome day cus i bought stuffs! :DD
met up with annabelle and katherine at cityhall mrt and we walked to suntec to the nokia service centre cus apparently, katherine's phone is screwed to the max. haha. and we witnessed this guy who's rather funny there. he got very pissed and he kicked the chair and shouted "i hate nokia centre la! cb" hahaha. 3 of us just laughed. lol.

after that we headed to gelare for lunch! awesome waffles. haha my future boyfriend MUST bring me to have ice-cream waffles. lol. no ice-cream waffles and i'll break up. LOL. hahah. So after that we went to meet my pri sch friend to pass him a cd and then we roamed around for a while. then we started playing this pinching shit. a newkind though. and just when me and katherine decided to team up and fight against annabelle secretly, she left already. tsk. we couldnt find any ____to pinch her in time. grrrr.

left for tiong bahru and dad picked me up from there. Headed home to fetch mom and edwin and we went to my uncle's house. haha kelly was being cute and nice cus she's not like those irritating kids outside where all they do is cry and make noise. you just feel like smacking those. but kelly was nice and obedient and sweet. and most of all, she was wearing a strawberry shortcake tee! awwwwwww that just made her much lovelier. hahaha. anyway, kelly's my uncle's daughter, the youngest in our generation. followed by me and michaela.

then we went to boon lay to pick eddie up from camp before we all left for dinner at idk where. boon lay i think. some hawker centre and man the chicken wings were great! my uncle ordered 20 -.- crazy. and we had like 4or 5 bowls of desert. just me and my brothers. lol. then home sweet home.

TODAY, 06 JULY 08
woke up early for piano at 8.30 at cck. saw kathleen at northvale with her sister (: went home after piano and now, wasting my life away on the computer while waiting for tuition at 2. lol.

2008-07-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

after two weeks of hell, im here to blog! :D

24 JUNE 08 , TUES
had english enrichment programme with the same speaker as before. Funny woman. haha. but yeah, was doing maths like many others during the programme (as usual). Started the maths marathon again. and tuition at night.

25 JUNE 08 , WED
started practising for chinese orals.

26 JUNE 08, THURS
english enrichment programme again. This time about summary writing. Mr chiu gave 2 essays.... grr.

27 JUNE 08, FRI
Bio test on reproduction in humans, anatomy. Bloody hell its not easy labelling the reproductive parts of the male. tsk.

28 JUNE 08, SAT
had a maths in sch in the morning. mock test paper 2. didnt know how to do so many questions ):

30 JUNE 08, MON
I cant rmb whatever that happened.

01 JULY 08, TUES
had the learning journey to National museum of singapore. haha it was fun shit with katherine. pictures are over at katherine's blog. Marcus was being idiotic by making the teacher lose her counting when she was counting for attendance for our class. Since she was new, marcus had to disturb her. hahaha. So while she was counting, we all did idiotic stuffs.

teacher: 24, 25, 26 ......
us: 27, 22, 34, 12, 24, 26.......

hahaha we just kept making her confuse that she lost count for more than 5 times. hahaha. funny shit. even up the bus, marcus suggested that we bent low so she couldnt see our head and then pop up again to make her lose count. haha bloody hell. but it was funny. lol. had tuition at night and my eyelids were feeling so heavy during that 2 and half hours.

02 JUNE 08, WED
had school as usual until 6. did e maths mock paper, paper 1. wasnt very satisfied with the results.

03 JUNE 08, THURS
i really dont rmb what happened.

04 JUNE 08, FRIDAY, today!!!
MY GOD CHINESE ORALS. i almost died while waiting in the waiting room. the anxiety was intense to the max. but it was alright while having the conversation thingy. Went to the
"appointment" with mrs Loo after that and man it was cool. haha. seriously! i dare to say i've finally understood quite a bit of a maths differentiation and integration of exponential thingy. its damn cool when you have a teacher beside while doing your work cus anything you can ask her immediately. left school at about 6 plus. cancelled today's tuition cus im freaking tired. gna sleep at 10 i think. hahhaha. noooooooooooooo THERE'S FINALLY NO SCHOOL TMR WHICH IS A SATURDAY! SO I CAN GO WATCH MY 11PM CHANNEL 8 SHOW! please understand my excitement. woo-hoo. might be going to suntec with katherine tmr (:

I've finally got rid of the thing that is always there but i never knew what to do with it. now i feel so free! :D really. hahahaha. hokay me go do maths now.

2008-07-02T07:51:00.000-07:00

<------ that isn't me -.- . just someone who is dying to imitate me.

2008-06-14T11:20:00.000-07:00

i think i have the greatest brothers anyone could ever have. (:

lol something random. haha.

2008-06-12T10:19:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHAHA!
here's what liverpool fans (i guess only us) do when they're bored in the night! okay fine its just me and edwin being really retarded idiots. btw, the mahjiong table's supposed to be the field.....

GOALLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

TWIN TERROR

err. liverpool collection!

yup, gerrard's the man!

MALAYSIA PICS!

dad's friend and family

while waiting for the coach back to singapore

berjaya times square

our hotel rooms

indoor mini theme park in berjaya times square

2008-06-12T09:25:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY , 12 june 08.

Had bio from 9 to 4. actually 10 to 4. cus i was still in bed at 9. belle too! -.- anyway, completed the chapter on reproduction in humans and we're moving on to reproduction in plants. lol. i didn't know plants could be bisexual too until i read the textbook -.- Lunch was mac donalds (ms seet's treat again). and guess what. The delivery came in a taxi! that was the first time i saw a mac delivery coming in a taxi. I suppose our orders were too much for the normal bag they use. lol. Lunch was funny with timothy. hahahaha. after lunch we (belle, pl, mic, tim, jannah, ervin, kenny, jx....) started roaming around the school. Then we went to the dnt block and started doing retarded stuffs. whale language! hahaha! plus pitching all -.- Then finally 4pm arrived. Went home.

Left house after an hour or so for vivo. KUNGFU PANDA! eh i thought it would be some stupid kiddy show but it was nice and funny la. some wugui or shifu thingy. haha. and that panda just reminded us of _____. hahaha. Ah, he wouldnt be angry even if he knows. lol. hahaha. Before the movie we had dinner at the secret recipe. eh they serve GREAT CAKES i swear. mic ate the chocolate one while i had the chocolate + banana one. fantastic cakes man :DD wanted the mango one but it was sold out. tsk. So the movie ended at about 11. Vivo was quiet by then. Dont know why but vivo was so quiet throughout actually. lol. While walking to the toilet, somebody called my name twice and i turned twice but he was wearing shades so i didnt know who the hell he was. anyway, why would anyone wear shades in a shopping mall and when there's nobody who's gna look? lol.

Trained with jannananananananananah (hahahah). alighted at queestown and parents picked me up from there. Home, bathed, slept. tiring day.

TODAY, 13 june 08
woke up at 11.30 , surprisingly, considering the fact that i dont usually wake up that late. lol. started reading p.s i love you. and i finished the book! in four days! man i feel so proud of myself. I decided to re-read since i left it untouched for months and i have probably forgotten the story in the start (i read only half-.-). but i finally managed to know what happens to holly and her letters all. now i can go watch movie! (told myself only to watch it after reading the book). PLEASE FEEL EXCITED FOR ME. hehe.

After that i started doing maths and physics. physics is tough shit. damn. i am still very unhappy with the C for physics. tmd.

so it was homework all day. at least that made me feel less guilty since i actually gave myself so many off-days. tsk.

Time's passing too quickly. Its already the 3rd week of the holiday. and its retarded. It feels like i've JUST started my holiday. school on the first and second week. what holiday -.- but on the other hand, i cant wait to finish this last, final lap of secondary school. and also to quickly clear o levels from constantly weighing on my heart. it sucks to know that you STILL have to study for o levels. anyway, 3 to 4 months more left, so hold on candice. you do not just want o levels to end. you want to walk out of the examination hall feeling confident too. (hopefully.)

birthday this year is gna suck big time.

2008-06-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

TODAY!
went to school for biology. and i swear for the whole day, with timothy around, and reproduction in humans being the chapter taught, we had a crazy time laughing la! hahaha. but its not easy eh! all the scrotum penis shit. not easy know! hahahaha! and ervin had a hard time before timothy came (they were the only guys) cus we (girls) were constantly bombarding him with questions that made him very embarrassed since he was the only guy. hahha. sorry ah. curiousity! :P Anyway, ms seet ordered lunch for us and again, its pizza! BUT she ordered so MUCH we were still hungry and we had to go to bpp for MORE food. lol. ms seet ordered us to be back by 1.3o and we were still at the garden plaza chatting while sitting in the middle (in a circle) at 1.30. lol. And and and on to plaza and on the way back to school, we were noisy shit in the bus luh! we were literally LOL (laughing out loud). Laughed like nobody's business. hahaha. Went back to school and we complained that the weather was too humid. so, ms seet being nice, took us to the mrl. and ms seet taught fertilisation while timothy made us laugh for the rest of the lesson. haha. he sure is crappy. so that was today for school (:

oh i read someone's(idk who i dont rmb) nick in my msn contacts and it was
"HIDE YOUR FACE SO THE WORLD CANT SEE YOU"

i SO agree with this sentence! and it immediately made me think of one person.

hmm, so i started imagining if i had a BIG NOSE that was so obvious and UGLY... and i concluded that i will follow whatever that person's nick was saying, hide my face. to not dirty the world. omg you're so similar to that man who pissed me off in the lrt. all dirtying the world. you with your ugly nose, while he with his filthy pants -.- tsk. why are you people doing this? sigh. i feel so damn sad for the world. why why why! oh and i went to use that face-warp thingy in my phone and there's one for "big nose". walau i got a shock when the pic of myself with a BIG NOSE!! it was hell scary. then i started thinking again (sry but i love to think) if i already had a BIG NOSE in the first place, and i went to use that face-warp thingy, i would probably die of a heart attack. oh god. scary. i hope you dont have it in your phone....but dont cry if you ever realise how your NOSE really turns people off ok.. cus plastic surgery is very advanced now. oh we will all try to understand the agony of having a BIG, UGLY NOSE. so dont worry again. you're not alone. hehe. sigh. i better go pray for you now. hopefully that plastic surgeon will not die of shock before he starts operating on you. go sleep early tonight honey and dont think about your nose okay. if there's a will, there's a way. :D

2008-06-06T07:03:00.000-07:00

went shopping at bugis and orchard with edwin today. took neoprints too. hahaha. retarded la. I havent been taking neoprints since sec 2 i think. hahaha. lol and my maid thought the guy in the neoprint was my boyfriend -.- hahaha. she's another retard. well, if he was ____ instead...... tsk ): stop dreaming candice, you know its impossible.

So the conclusion for today is - no homework done. :O i've gave myself 4 days of leave. hahaha. self claimed one uh. Tmr gna go out with aunty alice and family too. so thats 5 days. i swear im gna study next week.

a week has passed by again. so fast. Its tuition and piano class again. tsk. boring.

here's a really really nice song that got me and edwin addicted.
when you look me in the eyes - jonas brothers :D
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

2008-06-05T03:49:00.000-07:00

EDDIE'S BACK! :DD hehe.
i actually slept for 14 hours. thats alot cus i dont usually sleep that long. lol. Went to greenridge with eddie cus he needed to cut his hair. We ended up buying many stuffs from shop and save. i swear shop and save is cool la. We got cream puffs, jellies, and ingredients to make burgers! :D and they really really are delicious (had them for dinner!). Heard from eddie about his thrilling experiences. not very enjoyable, in fact, dangerous. I told him about recent school stuffs too. it was bonding time man. hahah. Rented many dvds too. Movie marathon i guess. And mom bought iron man and the forbidden kingdom dvd. hehe. greattt la. so we caught spiderman 3 in the afternoon and thats about it for today.

tmr! think im going shopping with edwin! :D and guess what. mom and eddie are giving me money! wokaaaaa! :DD and i bet shopping with edwin is gna be fun! my family rocks la. swear :DD

lol there's nth much to blog about today. just that i feel very very happy today! hehe :DD

2008-06-03T06:36:00.000-07:00

cant wait for this show. looks rather funny. heh.

2008-06-03T01:23:00.001-07:00

has anybody ever think that good grades can be exchanged for the permission to have a boyfriend?

lol. something really random i thought of today. if this agreement is valid, the sky will fall. for my case at least. boo.

2008-06-01T02:27:00.001-07:00

dad's 52nd birthday

i miss eddie. He has gone to brunei for more than a week already. and he's coming back this thurs. Hope he's still surviving in brunei. hahaha. cant wait for thurs :D

2008-05-31T06:59:00.000-07:00

Went to school for physics today. i think we're all getting used to saturday lessons already. Many didn't turn up though. Electricity is sure a hard chapter uh.

Went to bangkit with mom for lunch after school. Home, then slept. boring. Tmr's granny's birthday. Family gathering. But it's gna be damn boring i swear. Aunt alice's family not going. Plus so many hidden fights between the family. I'd rather do maths at home than go tmr. So what if its some high class restaurant -.- all for show only. retarded.

so its june soon. then july. then august! prelims! then september... october and nov!! my god! o levels! )):

today's really boring. swear. ):

2008-05-26T00:26:00.000-07:00

MT o levels is over! :D yay!
O levels doesnt seem that scary actually. maybe its only the first paper.
but still, rejoice! hehe.

Holidays are here. First week still have to go to school. I'm bored of school. Its the same old people, same old subjects, same old teachers, same old building. Lol. I need motivation to study. I'm losing my interest in subjects like biology ): die alr luh.

2008-05-23T17:47:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY 23rd may 08.

Last lesson of intensive MT. my god. FEELS GREAT! haha. intensive MT is not fun at all. Talking about MT, its MT o levels on monday, 26th may 08. gaaaaaaaaah! howhowhow. i pray for a B3 and above. Stayed in school while the rest were waiting for their parents. Lunch-ed with rachel in the canteen. just me and her. LOL. how long has it been since we were talking and laughing with each other man. Dont know why but it feels great to somehow once again experience such a feeling, just like sec 2.

Headed to class for a while and left for plaza. Took a cab there with michaela and clara. we were really lazy and the sun was insane. seriously. sushi + longan drink at plaza. Dad called and he came to pick me up from plaza to go to school for the PTC. Surprisingly, Mom was in the car too. lol. i thought she was working. She took leave instead. haha. lazy pig. im happy with my results. but its still not what i aim for yet. i hope i can reach my target. i really wanna win my cousin who got 13 points for L1R5. im like 3 points away. tsk. June holidays is gna be the golden period to study man.

Talking about june holidays, we received this piece of paper -- list of homework for the hols. And it was CRAZY!
9 exam papers for bio
4 exam papers for a maths
4 exam papers for e maths
2 exam papers for physics
3 exam papers for chemistry
2 exam papers for english
2 source based and 2 structured essays for SS
1 source based and 1 structured essay for elective history.

so thats a total of 24 papers! CRAZY! im sure i wont be able to finish it. Okay enough of blogging. gotta study for chinese. good luck, candice.............

2008-05-20T01:52:00.000-07:00

my god im so fucking pissed now. Firstly i was already in a foul mood due to that crazy weather. Then this guy of about 40 years old on the lrt had to piss me off badly. While waiting for the train, there were quite a lot of people on the station. However, there was alot of people in the train too. Then the train came and i was waiting for the people inside to come out before going in. i was being courteous ok! There was alot of people as mentioned so obviously i waited for quite some time. Then the guy behind started pushing. That was the first action. when i could finally get in, the door was already closing. Then many people couldnt get in. And guess what. That fucker got into the lrt and "scolded me" sort of. He was hurling something i couldnt hear cus i was listening to songs. and he had to swing his hand up while talking to me (when i wasn't listening -.-) like those ah bengs. Wtf. Hello its not my freaking fault that the people couldnt get in. I AM NOT MICROSCOPIC TO DIFFUSE INTO THE LRT YOU PEA BRAIN SHIT! i had to wait for people to come out before i can go in right! you're so dumb i bet you never had any education before. your children will have no assholes. you will get bang down my cars the moment you are on the road. oh wait. you wont even have a wife considering your ugly image + your filthy pants which look like that havent been washed for LIGHT YEARS! you ugly piece of shit. im serious you do resemble shit. wait. even shit's better than you. dumbfuck. you will choke on every meal you eat. you will contract all sorts of terminal diseases. you will be alone in this world. you will be declared bankrupt tonight for i dont know what reason i dont care. you will be stabbed to death on your way home. YOU WILL JUST DIE AND VANISH IN THE MOST GRUESOME AND PAINFUL WAY FROM THIS BEAUTIFUL WORLD CUS YOU ARE JUST BASICALLY DIRTYING IT WITH YOU AND YOUR FILTHY PANTS!!! you mother fucker! son of a bitch! ARGH!